Thursday, December 22, 2005

I had trouble sleeping last night.
My room mate wasn't around til 2am. So I pretend to sleep, while he was getting ready to bed.
Our beds are oppossing one another, which means if he sleeps and faces his left (and me facing my right) we would be watching each other sleeping. It's so weird because I have never had a stranger company in a room. At home, I have the room on my own except for my little brother who has revently taken over some space. And while I was with my bf, we were in bed together. Not seperated like in this case.
The ceiling fan was beating fast. I knew he had trouble sleeping too. So I peeped.
I lookover across his bed. He was facing me too. But I didn't know was he awake, or eyes closed because my glasses weren't on! Whatever it is, I was really getting it on last night. I couldn't resist, and had a hard on. Some part of me wanted to cross over and slowly caress him. Some part of me "slaps my face and forget about it"!
I tired down at nearly 3am.
Dejected. But I will have a few more tries soon.

Wednesday, December 21, 2005

I hate my Wednesday timetable. Although I only have two classes (1 hour each) on this particular day, the irritating problem is that one class is in the morning session and the other later evening. WTF!

Today, after report writing class I went to the cafeteria for lunch with sister and cousin. FYI, both of them are studying at this University College. As I noticed, there are actually a number of worthy good looking guys around campus. I have my favorite lists. There’s this one particular Malay chap whom I tag as the Hero Remaja! The reason being he reminds me of the many male models wannabe in one of the local Malay teen magazine.

He’s tall, fair and nice built guy. His girlfriend is so ugly, that I wouldn’t mind to replace her. But I don’t like this guy because he is my competition at campus! The competition for the most beautiful man on campus!

I think he’s bisexual….

Tuesday, December 20, 2005

I was at the Thank You party for all volunteers of the Red Carnival last Saturday evening. The committee graciously invited all the performers, but sadly only I came representating the whole gang.
I brought along mum's carrot cake for the Chairman and his partner. But shared them with everyone. It took 5 minutes to dispose. Cool huh.
Anyway, it was a great evening for me to get to know the PT people. Since I will be doing more of this volunteer work with PT, I should get acquinted to the personels too. I got to know this one guy who studied the same course I am doing now. I think he is in his late 20's. From his accent, I knew he was an overseas graduate. Well some overseas graduate don't have accent, but some do. Whatever it is, this Chinese guy had an interesting story to share. He graduated from the US of A, and worked as an assistant video editor then. But when the economic crisis hit, it was a turning point for him as that job did not provide him the necessary satisfaction. Hence, he quit and moved to Ukraine! (of all places)
In between muching the rendang and listening to him, I reminded myself that this could be one a hell of a long long narrated story....and me being the nicest lot around, stood and carried on listening.
In Ukraine he met this Italian guy who happen to be the ambassador too. Cool. I was excited then! After a year a so, this political guy had to move back to Italy (Rome) and asked him to accompany. But the catch was he cannot stay with him as the ambassador does not allow boyfriends to stayover. Whatever excuses. And at that moment too, he was persuaded by his mother to get back.
So here he is today, living helplessly in KL teaching English in a private university. I forgot to mention that he is so charming! I thought of having sex with him that night. But on second thought, nah...let's keep it that way. He confessed that he was an attention seeker! HELLO! How can two attention seeker sleep together? It's so againt legally bottom!
There's nothing much of agenda this week at campus. Instead the projects, and assignments are pilling up. Dame.
There's this one research report where I have to cover on HIV/AIDS. Well actually it was up to the students to decide on the area of research, but I thought since I have the know-know in this area should take the great opportunity to learn and in the same time score! Duh.
I dyed my hair red on Sunday. It was just for the fun. I wanted to do something odd since dad is not around until January. It is not the red-red, chillie red colour, but it is obvious from a close range. I'm happy with this for mean time. At least these attention seeker get what he wants for now! Hoho

Saturday, December 17, 2005

I'm getting a little bit confused with my dating status at the moment. I am so in love with this guy whom I broke up recently, and patch things back again. But then my mind is distracting me with many other choices available outside.
I'm just split with everything.
He called me two nights ago, and we spoke for nearly 2 hours. I missed him so much, the things we do together and such but I just can't let it out. My heart can't leave him, but my mind is just being a real bitch.

Thursday, December 15, 2005

Got up at nearly 10 today. Report Writing class has been canceled to allow the students to work on the group project.

So anyway, I took the day to clean the room. Thank God my room mate weren't around. I peeked at his timetable on his desk, Wednesdays seem to be a hectic one for him. As oppose to mine lah!

Got my laundry done, which cost me RM4.50! Dame.

I had a quiz in the afternoon for Office Application subject. I scored 15/20. I was just too excited but it's not a test or whatsoever. It's just a quiz.

I took off from the lab asap, as I was rushing for a cheerleading class. Huhuhu. The same old me. Practically, today was a little bit different than usual because I was heading to the AmBank Kajang Branch to meet one of the officers, whom drove me all the way to Seremban branch to audition a bunch of wannabe cheerleaders.

Actually, they are preparing for AmBank's Sports Games nationwide level next February. Interestingly, cheerleading is one of the contested sport.

I'm taking charge of Zone 3 (covers Melaka - N. Sembilan - Selangor branch). The audition process was a huge task. I had to be patience, because most of them were either lembab...or just can't cheer at all. I got the 10 girls I wanted but this would be another huge task for me. It's like turning an ugly duckling to a beautiful white swan. I'll update you on this!

See if my magic wand works!

Tuesday, December 13, 2005

This would be an exciting week for me to finally be in the driving seat of a student.

Having to actually live on campus has its advantage in which opens my thinking cap. There are many type of characters that I have never approached of in my life before, and made me realise how lucky I am to be brought up in a moderate but yet fulfilling upbringing.

It is very true how upbringing reflects the person at present. His character, his language and his manner describes his family.

I have not made friends with anyone, except my sister and my cousin. Ironically, my sister is my classmate! We're doing the same course. Sibling rivalry? Maybe.

Anyhow, I should be able to accommodate myself to this new environment. If not, then I have to suck it up and just hate being here. One thing I have learn from my Theories of Communication subject is that we ought to accept to a new environment that we are in. We can't change an environment, but we can change the way we adapt to it. Role taking they say.

Just sharing what I have learned lah....

Tuesday, December 06, 2005

I have been enrolled to a new college, hopefully the last of this series. My dad has transfered me to my sister's college, Kuala Lumpur Infrastructure University College (KLIUC) or formerly known as Ikram College in Serdang for the better cause.
For the next 2.5 years this native boy will be pretty much spending his time in the Serdang vicinity. Putrajaya is only 10mins away!
I will be moving into the hostel, of which I have request to have the 1 room single bed. Firstly, because of privacy. Two, I don't like sharing. Three, I can bring any man in! Hehehehe. Stupid! I have packed my stuff, and a few big stuff like the table lamp, the Hi-Fi set, 1 side table and my mirror!
I'm so excited for this. After all the setback I have been through, I hope this whole new environment would cheer me up as Christmas would be around the corner. Unfortunately, my parents will be going back to Sarawak for Christmas for some community responsiblity. Crap. Guess I will be spending my day with my siblings.
It might sound pathetic but I could be spending my Christmas at Musictheque! Kesian kan?
Although I cannot blame the fact that the issue of my relationship with my boyfriend would be the in-thing here to read. But I don't need the necessary attention, or perhaps any charitable cause from anyone. I was just upset.
It has been a week, nearly two now. I have left his house, the two cute cats and perhaps most importantly his companionship. I missed it so much. But I have to move on. Time was sincere giving me the opportunity to hitch back the tore relationship. I was given the decision.
Though I am still confused, I hope my decision to stay single at this moment would do justice to me and favourably to him. I know I was a bad boyfriend, whom didn't care much of what it takes to be understanding. I was the selfish one. And I took it all for granted.
He still sms me, wishing me good luck for the Singapore trip and etc. I'm just so lucky now. Having a man who is still so faithful. A man whom was once my true love, and still. But now just a friend from afar. I know he is going to read this. I hope the space given will not do much harm do both of us.

Monday, December 05, 2005

My weekend was a testing ground on my capability to withhold my promise to stop the HIV/AIDS from spreading. I was originally the main core committee of The Red Carnival, organised by the Pink Triangle Organisation. My main task was to provide entertainment at the street carnival for btoh 2 days.

At first, I thought this would be an easy task. But after sitting in the drive and getting the whole entertainment set on the full scale, I then knew it was not what I have though earlier. Approaching 8 dance group to perform for this charitable cause was a huge task. I understand that performing for charity is a difficult attraction to get skilled and talented people to display thier act for free! But I did my kick. And pulled in all 8 groups and performed for both days. I was happy overall the fact that the carnival was so much better than last year. Besides, the crowd was there to support. Not. They were there watching, but not participating. Getting them to speak on a taboo subject like HIV/AIDS was a task.

Saturday I spend my whole day behind stage getting all acts ready. But on Sunday, I manage to pull through and went on volunteering by selling Red Ribbons, balloons to the public besides giving out postcards and informative phamplets on HIV/AIDS. I learned the many attitudes of my fellow Malaysians. They were this bunch who are the supporting lot, where they generously donated RM10. They were some who didn't care much, but gave away RM1 because they pitied us. And some didn't even bothered!

A weekend of learning and educating the public overall gave me a positive inject to pursue my work with Pink Triangle. I am not surprised with more projects coming up, especially the Mardi Gras I proposed for next year. I hope this will come true!

Wednesday, November 30, 2005

Trying to sort my life the past few days. The sms from my ex still boils in my mind until today. I feel so helpless, and sometimes things that I do do not give me any satisfaction. Like last Sunday, I had a performance at Atmospheare for the East is Red Party, a fund raising event for Pink Triangle. The thought of having gorgeous man around me and watching me prouncing like an angel did not give me a full blast hard on. I was still in mourn of the death of my love relationship. The one that took nearly 2 years to build.
I'm so thankful that my friends are quite sensitive. Maybe not all but the encouragement I get is enough to give me a needed rest. I shouldn't be thinking too much since the decision was done. Or was it not? I am so confused. Part of me wants the relationship back, and part of me not.

And today it strike me again! Someone blurted out that..."oh yeah, take things for granted Jude!" Perhaps it is very true that I take things for granted. Two sms of the same issue from two different people was enough to wake me up! It was my rude awakening. I was sitting on the sofa thinking on what I have done in the past and how have I been taking everything for granted!

Sunday, November 27, 2005

I have no blinking idea how to pour out my love issue here.
Just to cut the chase, I was dumped by my boyfriend of nearly 2 years on Thursday evening. I was devastated. The sms he sent me damaged the whole idae of having a wonderful relationship. It goes:
"This is what I want you to do tomorrow afternoon. Come over to the house an collect your stuff. Leave the house key in the mail box. Please make it clean and simple."
What the f**k?
"I derserved it", someone said.
"Owh, you poor little thing", said another.
I thought I could have confronted him and asked for forgiveness. But I didn't. I couldn't. "All this while you took me for granted", he said.
I haven't cried. But the grief I tendered the past 3 days is unimaginable. I love him still, in fact he is the first guy I have really fallen in love with.

I will let the weekend to rest, and will let the week to decide. Being the alone me would be a blessing, or could be pure nightmare. I don't know what future brings for me. I can't think.

Thursday, November 24, 2005

Today is my worst every nightmare...
I went to visit Thermos today after been missing in action for a near 2 weeks. So I decided to just drop by, and meet my sauna buddies.
The other excitement was that Thermos went through a small renovation, and that kept the excitement. But what could be the worst thing to hit you (as a boyfriend)?
When you bumped into your boyfriend at the sauna! At the doorstep!
God help me.

Tuesday, November 22, 2005

Have you watched Emily Rose? Creeps me until today. I watched the excorcism movie with my sayang before I left for Genting. And while I was at the Hotel, the thought of creepy sound and sixth sense haunts me. Thank God I have a macho room mate who kept accompanying me. Ha.

I will be watching Harry Porter real soon, and Chicken Little too. Or should I not? Oh by the way, I will be performing at Atmospheare this Sunday for East is Red Party, a fund raising event for Pink Triangle and also next Wednesday at Zouk for Mambo Jambo: Back to School Party.
Cool huh?
I have 2 events to look forward to this weekend. Firstly, will be attending an open house cum birthday party. Of course there would be a full load of men there. But sigh, my boyfriend will be right beside me shooting down at every opportunity I have. On Sunday, besides the party at 12SI my team will be having a sparring session with a cheerleading team from Singapore. Coolness again?!
Shit, class starts next week!

Monday, November 21, 2005

I was browsing through the pictures gallery at www.kl-iq.com and there was this one particular or two snaps taken that caught me! Here it is:













Now focus on the guy with the red tee! We look alike! Spooky!

Saturday, November 19, 2005


Jill, me and Faiznur at Genting. This is one of our snapshots taken while lepaking after our cheerleading showcase. Jill captains Maclay of SMK Seri Bintang Utara while Faiznur co-captains Xavier of SMK Convent Bukit Nanas. Me? The ultimate male cheerleader of Malaysia!
Announcement: I will be going to Singapore for a cheerleading coaching exam. If I were to pass this, I will be the very first certified cheerleading coach in Malaysia! Singapore trip will be from December 3rd til 7th.
Now that I am back, there is so many many things that I have to run through. In midst of my massive personal agendas, I will be celebrating a family affair "victory" when my dad and younger sister will be graduating from their respective paper. Dad for his MBA and sis her Diploma.

Though I am suppose to be proud of thier achievements, I am trapped in a rivalry. I am 23 this coming February, and IF I were to follow suite what I was planned to do ie. Law, I should be graduating by June next year!

Sigh. I have nothing to shout about now, because I am still stuck at Base 1. I hope things will go easier for me real soon. I'm so confused with everything now! Very confused.
whooooo.....the ultimate male cheerleader is back from Genting!
I didn't really bother to stop by at the cyber cafe at the Hotel where the team stayed, because 1 hour cost me bloody RM10! The 8 day trip was nothing to shout about, as this is my third cheerleading showcase there.
Nothing much has changed since then.
I miss my sayang so much. He couldn't call me sometimes as the room I was staying at has very bad reception. He solved it by calling the Hotel, and connected to my room. So clever. Love him more everyday!

Friday, November 11, 2005

I will be leaving to Genting tomorrow morning for a cheerleading showcase. This is our 3rd.

The showcase will end on the 18th. If you have no plans on the weekend, drop by to Genting First World Plaza and you will be able to catch my performance. Hehehe....

Monday, November 07, 2005

Believe me, time flies very fast!

Today, I will be reunited again with my loving boyfriend after a 10-day old seperation. Thanks to Raya. I can't imagine our first reaction when I see him at home tonight.

Would I greet him say Hi and shake hands? Or should I salam Raya and give him a I miss you so much hug. Or maybe just a kiss, and let that say it all. I torn with many choices. Maybe I do all.

I can't believe the excitement of having him back in my arms. We have only 5 days to celebrate our love drill before I leave for Genting.

He got up early today, to buy me herpia at the pasar pagi in suburb Kuching. The last time I was there, he brought me for a delicious breakfast. Besides the mouth watering Sarawak laksa, I fell in love with herpia! What the heck is herpia? It's a type of kueh, and I have no blinking idea how to explain the ingredients.

Sunday, November 06, 2005

The holidays finally comes to the tail end.
So how has everyone enjoyed the week? The Sleaze Ball Party 2005 was the one main attraction of the week. Party was held every other night, at various club. Bliss was the central place to meet Singaporeans and other foreigners flocking the town while most alim Malays balik kampung! I didn't bother to attend any of the party maybe because I was not really attracted to the music scene. The last time I encountered this kind of experience, having Singaporeans in town too was 2 years ago. Then, it was total hopeless. The Singaporeans then,was only to flesh their muscles out. As though it was an orgy Mr World Flex Your Muscle competition. It was pathetic, and sad.
Since my boyfriend departure for Raya, as though time has given me the freedom I wanted. But then I didn't bothered to use any opportunity. Except for the 2 nights' I visited Blue Boy!
NOTE: Blue Boy is so so boring!
I can't believe the fact that for the first time I did not shake my booty on the floor. All I did at Blue Boy was sitting pathetically on the sideline and watch other mankeys strutt their stuff. The music was boring. This is already a sign. Musictheuqe has to re-open next week! But this monkey wouldn't be around to grace the floor. I will heading up to the Genting highland for a 8 day cheerleading performance at Times Square.
*sigh*

Friday, November 04, 2005

M A L E D A N C E R
Episode 1
I'm in the midst of setting up an all-male dance group, who will be featured on the plu clubbing scene. I went for a major audition announcement on the Internet from Kakiseni to Klue and Friendster. I hope to find at least 4 guys who share the same interest and talent. The requirement is you have to be between 18 - 25 partly because I would prefer someone who is still studying. This dance group could be a sideline activity. You can be str8 or not, but I would rather choose the later. Good physique is a must, because I want my dance group to be a bunch of desired young fresh meat! At least when we perform, the guys can feast themselves and not chat away while I'm breathing heavily memorising the steps. Another requirement is talent. You have to be as good as Britney! And please, no lembab in the team!
I came across this blog, a male dancer residing somewhere in Canada. Try check him out. He is cute and obviously gay. Another dance freak like me:www.xanga.com/male_dancer_ca

Wednesday, November 02, 2005

Can't tolerate this holiday season. I have fallen trapped into boredom. I became a slave to the fairytale world.
I took so many pictures of myself from the new Canon IXUS digital series. Gosh I look so horrible! It made me realised how much I have put on weight.

I have been skipping gymnastics for a month now. I have not been to the gym as regular. If I did, well what does 1-2 sets of repetition do to me? All I do at the gym is playing my Misssy Elliot cd and dance like a retard. The poor mirror could break into pieces real soon.

I went swim last night. Only a mere 10 laps. Pity.

Hopefully to tone down 2-3kilos by next week. And how do I achieve that? By accepting all the Raya open house invitations!


Tuesday, November 01, 2005

Chombi revealed!


A new hp from my beloved boyfriend!

Sunday, October 30, 2005

I will, for the first time (I think), profess that I am really missing my love! Gosh. How it seemed so lonely, when I can't have him by my side. I have to tolerate these emptyness for 10 dreadful days. While everyone else are enjoying the Season holidays, I have to content and be a faithful loving boyfriend.
Well his temporary absence is good for my family. I have been a good homely boy. Helping cooking and do some other house chores. But this would be only temporary. I will have to leave them to Genting for a 8 days work job. And when I get back I would be entering back to classes.
I did not mention this to anyone yet, but I will now. I am moving to a new university. To continue where I stopped. The reason being I have a better option of subjects. My sister will be my class-mate, which is a good thing because if I were not able to attend class (due to cheerleading commitments!) I can rely on her for notes! It's so cool to be the eldest brother you know!

Saturday, October 29, 2005

Got up early today as my sayang was leaving to Kuching. His flight was at 11am.
He left Pantai at 8:30am.
Afterwards, I was then already wide awake so bought myself a pack of nasi lemak and today's The Star paper. Watched Astro channel 70, the only channel I could watched as the Astro dish we had had some problems.

So I reviewed again my cheerleading videos. I am never bored of it, watching it all over again. Every time I watch a competition, I will get new inspiration and ideas. I'm suppose to choreograph the new routine for my team preparing for the Florida 2006 competition. Well I'm 80% done. Stunt wise, I'm quite happy with it. Just that I'm torn between 3 ideas for dance now. It's either to do an all Britney, a Malaysian remix or hiphop remix.

This is my first time choreographing 100% for All Stars. The UK routine was basically an input from the members. I created the Intro though and a few others, including the cheers. Hopefully I could share the video with you soon, once we pay our money back to the UK people!

Friday, October 28, 2005

I received my last cheque for coaching the Sri Garden team. It is not as handsomely paid as Beckham's RM6.8 million a week though! Nuts.

So my very first assignment was to spend on clothing. Head to Sungei Wang with my old friend Andy. It has been quite a while I have not catch up with him. He complained that I didn't see him after the UK trip. I got him a souvinier London initial pen to shut up! We met around 4ish. It was suppose to be a bukak puasa with him, but I arranged for an earlier appointment because going window shopping with him is fun! He has great fashion sense.

I got meself 2 cargo pants, which cost me RM160! Thank God it was on sale! Then, got me 2 new tees. One is green and the other pink!

And then we head to Green Lotus. My sister and 2 cousins joined us. It was quiet but the presence of these 3 native bithces made things lively. I kesian Andy as he felt akward! So we all had our little Asian delicacy. Andy had some Bangkok fried rice, and myself the Singapore fried mee. Got us some finger food too.

I love Green's environment, and thinking of having my 23rd birthday dinner there.

Thursday, October 27, 2005

Some entertainment gossips and news for you to read, so don't have to bother and buy a Galaxie or whatever entertainment mags available out there!

Janet Jackson has a daughter!
She got married way back in 1983 to James Debarge for 3 months. And according to the husband's younger brother, Young Debarge, the couple has a baby names Renee, who is now 18yo. But would this be true? Because if it is, Renee Debarge should be 21yo instead. The Jackson's camp has denied this story.

The battle of the Simpsons: Ashlee wins!
So Ashlee Simpsons finally outclassed her elder sister after coming up tops at the Billboard 200 chart. Ashlee's new album I am Me, beat Rod Steward's and a few other notable acts including Stevie Wonders. I am Me sold 220,000 albums on its first week falling short from its debut Autobiography which sold 398,000 in sales last year. But she still hold the family bragging rights - Jessica has not yet topped the album chart.

Who is Datuk K?

Hopefully you've heard of the gossip of this one Datuk K, who is closely linked to our darling princess, Siti Nurhaliza. Dato' Khalid Mohd. Jiwa, or popularly known as Datuk K by the media was one of the important figures who brought her fame to the Royal Albert Hall in London. Ironically, Datuk K has a Hotel business in London too and a fleet of companies back in Malaysia. The lady in red is his ex-wife. It is widely spread now that the two are in love.
The month of October, the month of silence and grief. The month of the departure of beloved ones.

First, my cousin who died from a tragic accident in Sarawak.

Second, the passing away of our beloved First Lady.

Third, the death of Dato' Sidek, the father of the great badminton Sidek family.

Anyone to add on to this list?

Tuesday, October 18, 2005

It was yet another quiet and boring weekend. Except for the bukak puasa with my father-in-law at Crown Princess, I had an enormous time trying to fit myself as a sleezy pig!
I had been skipping everything that is active, from gym, swimming, gymnastics and dance for the past week or two. My body has been resisting to all this healthy activities, but indulging more to bad habits like eating, eating, and sleeping...
My weight has gone up!
Im going berserk now. My sayang gave me a lecture yesterday on my sudden change of behavious. I can't explain it but I can't help it either.
So I decided today that I will start swimming first. Than perhaps to the gym tomorrow and gymnastics on Friday. And continue again until Raya is over. When Raya comes, my bad habit will definetly crawl its back on me...I can't resist the good food served during any season. Gosh! Deepavali next week! How to diet?

Saturday, October 15, 2005

I went to watch this interesting film at GSC Midvalley two nights ago. While my sayang was enjoying his breakfast with his former colleague at the Thai restaurant, I pulak had to snuf myself to watch this gowry and stuffy production.

I was very excited at first because the poster itself boldly print "FIRST SARAWAK FILM" and secondly, I came across one of the actor as Realene Mattu. A famillar name. So being this very anak jati Sarawak I wanted to watch was in store. Really. My ticket was RM7 only.
At the same time, there was the screening of Goal! of which I had a complimentary ticket to it but decline to watch as I had just watched England beat Poland 4-1. Enough Football.
Not use to watch movies alone. But brave myself this time.
When the screen rolled, and the first scene was shown I knew that I was going to NOT enjoy this one. It would be a boring 90 minutes (it was shorter actually). The movie directing was not really enticing and gosh, the actors need more classes! I could have done better! Those movie goers next to me slowly ignored what was next and handphones keep on ringing. I was annoyed with the whole episode. But I stayed on to watch the ending.
I loved the storyline, quite original and not the usual Hollywood horrors. If they had more money, and perhaps a better director, and pool of actors, this FIRST film from the East could have been better.
Raelene was my friend at church ack in my hometown. I checked the official website and browse through her profile. She was 3rd at the Miss Tourism International last year. Wow. Raelene is Kelanit mix Australian.
I message her on Friendster to congratulate her on the debut. I did say that it could improve, but me being a bitch...of course I didnt want to hurt her. Hopefully she won't get to read this post!

Tuesday, October 11, 2005

I did mention I was going for this second call audition for a musical.
Well it went well overall, knowing that I was quite happy with my performance.
The audition took place at Istana Budaya's rehearsal studio on the 4th floor. It was to start at 8.30pm and I arrived 5 minutes late. Not good. I bump into Roslan Aziz at the foyer but did not tegur him or anything. Not good. As I entered the studio, I was nearly faint when I saw those faces who will battle the next hour or two with me. I couldn't believe it, but these people were there.
The boys from the defunct Shades were there!
The top 3 winners of Audition 2 were there!
The finalists of Malaysian Idol 1 & 2 were there!
Even Bob from AF1 was there!
A few notable ASK and IB dancers were there!
And other unknown faces!
So what was the outcome?
I told myself at that point I was quite lucky for making it to the selection round. Roslan mentioned from the hopefulls 200, only the 35 of us were the favorites. But that night, only the best will be chosen.
First the singing audition. I sang my old time favorite To Where You Are by Josh Groban. Roslan tegur, "Good singing, but I want a Malay song. Boleh ke?". And I stupidly sang Belaian Jiwa!
Next was the dance audition. I was pretty confident with these. Not to forget the choreographer congratulate me personally on the victorious UK cheerleading performance! I was in awe. At least I know he reads The Star now. He (Pat Ibrahim) gave us a simple intro, and followed by an impromptu dance which I really liked. I hoped that would differenciate my skills with the others.
Finally the hardest part, the acting audition. Prior to this, I have had no proper acting classes except for those I have learnt from my Literature days at Taylor's! We were asked to perform a 1 minute solo acting of which I thought I did okay. My new found friend from the audition even complemented my performance.
My final say, although I know I won't lend the few big roles (which I don't really bother), I just hope Tiara and her esteemed co-workers will give me a part as a dancer and backup singer.
If nobody call me by next week , then I will call them. Desperate? Yes.

Monday, October 10, 2005

This Rhamadan weekend has been entirely boring for me resulting in my non existence at the popular gay clubs in town. First, I had no friends to accompany me and secondly to respect the Holy month (although I'm not Muslim, its just my gesture to do so lah). Instead my energy was fully charged for an entire Saturday afternoon at church, preparing for this Gala Dinner for the Lun Bawang natives in KL. This is like the ala-Gawai celebration but only held 3 months later! This event will take place on the 22nd at a 3-Star hotel. Besides the usual traditional dance performance lined up in the programmes, the promosing one could have been the inclusion of the beauty pagaent for men and women, i.e. Ruran Ulung (for women) and Padan Liu Burung (for hunks). In the spirit of celebrating this maiden event, I signed up for the men contest. I don't expect the excitement to win but taking this opportunity to learn more of my roots. I will post a picture or two later after the event. Wish me luck and hopefully when I answer my Q&A part, I would be able to reply in French and speak fondly of World Peace!

Thursday, October 06, 2005

Last month, I went for an audition for a part in this musical to be produced next year February. This musical is based on a movie realeased last year, of which became the talk of the town, and maybe, I said maybe the whole world too, as because it was the most expensive movie ever produced by any Malaysians.
Hint: The story is about the love of a Java princess and a Malay warrior.
This musical was to be staged earlier this year. I was at the auditions last year and made to the next round until I decided to quit because I was already accepting another musical part in Jalan Impian musical (produced by Farah Sulaiman). Bad luck struck me when I got my contract terminated after 2 months of rehearsal. Sial.
So anyway, I received a call this afternoon confirming that I will need to attend a second audition. Roslan Aziz and Pat Ibrahim will be there, as this two hunky is the Producer and Choreographer. Pat choreographed the Asmaradana dance, the ones you see on Tiara's video clip.
I sms my sayang, "hehehe...i got the pgl 2nd call! yay!"
"Great sayang! Hope you get a part", he replied.

I'm very excited for the Sunday appointment at Istana Budaya. But I am still not really sure to take any part (if given) because I have major commitments with my cheerleading next year. If I were to proceed with this grand project, I will have to commit myself from Dec until Feb which means say goodbye then to the Singapore trip in Dec and two Jakarta trips in Jan and Feb!

Tension!

Wednesday, October 05, 2005

Okay, the fasting month has begun. And to me it's going to be a very quiet month for me.

First, I won't be going much as often (especially when it comes to eating at day-time) because I'm tired of getting people starring at me thinking that I am a Malay-Muslim murtad which I'm not! Sial.

Secondly, no Musictheque whole month! Chee bai betul!

Third, no Malay guys to hunt because semua berlagak sial! Just because its the Holy month semua aktiviti pun kena tergendala. Fine. I respect.

Fourth, no friends to hangout during daytime because 99.9% of friends are Malay. Bukan racists yer.

Fifth, staying home and be a good boy for the whole month and get rewarded for the coming Christmas!

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO YOU ALL!

Sunday, October 02, 2005

Musictheque closing for a month.
Reason: Bulan Puasa

But was that decision necessary? I mean although I can notice it every other weekend, when I stand on the podium and glance through each faces, the cute, the handsome, the hunky, the young, the oldies, the ugly, the fattest, and the fugliest, most of them are Malay (Muslim). I take it the management made a good reason to close the club from operating during the holy month.

Then, what do you then to the minorities like me?! The chinese, the indians, the east bumi's, the lain2 and mat salleh, who actually don't practice fasting pada bulan Rhamadan. I'm not upset. Well maybe I am.

I guess I will not be going to club for the next month. Save RM80! With that amount, it is equivalent of 5 time visiting the sauna!

Eh, lama tak pegi sauna kan?

Jeng..jeng..jeng..

Saturday, October 01, 2005

I skipped my gymnastic classes yesterday to spend the lovely evening with my sayang. But instead of a candle-lite dinner together, tis' two Sarawakians had to put their bid for lovexism and spare the evening for a boring foursome at Midvalley.
My sayang had to skipped his sup tulang.
My sayang's close friend was actually on a date of which I didn't knew about only until when we heading back from mamak.
So anyway, while the lovebirds opt to watch Jodie Foster running crazy 30,000 feet above sea level, we decided to test our masculinity watch Kate Hudson playing with ugly dolls and turned herself 30 years older! I lost my masculine test! Mak terjerit twice!
This movie was worth the RM22 we paid to watch the midnight show. BTW, RM11 is so expensive for a movie! The Government should have reduce dthe entertainment duty in the recent budget! Isn't watching movies is promoting healthy lifestyle too??
Just to relate The Skeletone Key with my real life story: My grand-mother used to play black magic in order to save my late grandfather, whom was paralysed for nearly a year after he was tarpped into a magic by his own jealousy driven cousin. I was only 15, and couldn't understand more but my grandmother had no other choice but to tag along in this scary and yet horrifying game.
I can still profess that the Lun Bawang community back home do still practice this sinful belief even despite after Christianity overuled the people in the 1930's.
Now, whenever I am back to my grandmother's place, it frightens me sometime (freaks me a lot! I don't even dare to go pee in the wee hours), that you can't just runaway from this experience since it is already part and parcle of my family life. Thank God, my granny is still healthy and strong today. She shyed away from black magic on the day when my grandfather passed away in 1999.

Thursday, September 29, 2005

No, BRITNEY is pregnant again!

Actually that heading was not necessary. I had five minutes left when I log on to my blog to update. I was then at a nearby cyber cafe to kill time.
Didn't know what to write so I wrote the untrue story of Britney getting pregnant again. Anyway, I was watching this program on Channel V featuring her and Mr. Kevin Finderland aka Mrs Britney Spears. Surprisingly, whenever I tuned on Channel V every other week, alternate days I will not miss the series of Britney & Kevin: Chaotic. There is no need for you to bother and tune on Channel V again because:
  1. The last episode was yesterday!
  2. So the tiru MTV who first produced this ala celebrity couple on screen. I.e. Jessica and Nic
  3. Anything on Channel V suck, except for the cute hunky Filipino VJ! Rick, sape nama nya?!

Tuesday, September 27, 2005

The Night When Bloody Daniel Was The New Idol!

I cannot believe it yet again, after the AF3 seasone was over, our fellow loyal sms-ing Malaysians are still dumb! Blonde!

Don't waste your credits lah.

I had a terrible weekend.

Had a rough Saturday morning (minus the dimsum breakfast I had with my fellow cheerlings at Ss2). Woke up so bloody early for the event in Sunway. Thank God I manage to get back to bed at noon time and slept until my sayang woke me up for lunch at 3.

I had an appointment at 6 for a dance rehearsal. Since my not-so-popular triumph at the UK competition, everyone got hold of my number and politely asked for my profesional help! Pandai betul mempergunakan I!

Anyway there was this one project I couldn't say no because I have prior intentions to stage this dance in a bigger ala-theatre style production. So as I was hurrying myself to the venue (it was a church!), still having the setbacks from the early morning. I arrived and my cousin greeted me at the door.

So, "where are the girls?"

Oh he replied, "dia orang kat Puchong lagik"... I'm like what the f**k!

So I waited until 7.45pm and these blondies finally showed up! And there you go, I had to miss my evening with my sayang watching Nita losing handsomely to bloody Daniel! He smsed my the result while I was torchering myself with the blondes to the tune of Asmaradana!

Update!

Sunday, September 25, 2005

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Preferbly cute, mix parentage and speaks fluent English.
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Wednesday, September 21, 2005

Mister Want-To-Do-Everything

I thought I would be quite free and available this week. I was planning to stay home most of the time and watch more VCDs. *my current favorite past time!
Then I realise that I will never get away with responsibilities! I had gymnastic class yesterday. This is my second class. The reason is that since we will be planning to go for Florida and again UK next year, we have to be twice better. I'm perferting my jumps and do some stupeed sommersaults! I practice backhandspring yesterday! Mimpi menjadi kenyataan.
Today I have a meeting with the boys from Pink Triangle for the World AIDS Day celebration in December. Then, tomorrow I have an audition to go for a TV host. Well I'm not giving up yet on being able to host a program. If did it once, I'll stop! Just want my 15mins of fame. Before that, I'll watch movie with sayang at Midvalley. Should be watching FlightPlane featuring Jodie Foster.
Friday, I have training at KLCC park with the team in the late afternoon before heading to Sunway for gymnastic class. On Saturday morning, we have a performance at 7.30! This is for a family day. And I'm invited for this wedding from a long lost gay friend. His brother's. I thought of going but it's in Serdang, somewhere near UPM or something at the Petronas hall....?! I hope I can make it for that. And in the evening, the Pink Triangle boys have this Mid Autumn celebration at the centre. RM15 per entry and RM20 per couple. Should we go sayang?

Monday, September 19, 2005

Dancing Queen!

I am planning for a big assault at Musictheque really soon! After watching protege belting it out every week, I just can't help it and show what I can do!

Just recently, the kids from the Ruined and Poised (RnP) dance group performed. Although they were a little bit odd, in the sense that there were 3 boys and no paper-doll show. In someone's mind, shoulnd't it be the usual perempuan-under-construction performances? But anyway, I was not blowed by their dance. I came to support, which I am good at! Cheering out, "Go Nazreem! Go RnP!"....These particular abang was starring at me with a weird look. No, I am not crazy! I'm just a natural cheerleader! Boo!
So afterwards, I hugged Nazreem and he proposed that I should join them for the next performance. I was counting my fingers! My one shot of 15mins fame at a gay pub! Then again, should I do it with them? Because they obviously had a little bit of a problem with the dance choreography. I wished I could help, but I don't really know them well. And I think the rest of the members don't like me....
Whatever it is, I'm gearing up for my debut and only performance at Musictheque! I will invite my friend from Sabah, my whole Klang Valley clan, and cheer-freaks! I hope when I performed that night, the drinks at the pub will get sold out! The front door will be cramped...and another long que outside waiting wishing to see me do my Beyonce thang!
Ish, berangan betul adik-adik ni kan!?

Travel and Adventure....begins!

I'm leaving to a few places by end of the year. Including Bangkok and Singapore.
In January and February, will be leaving to Jakarta for 2 weekends. Then in March, back to Bangkok again. In April, if God permits flying to Florida! In July, again will be going back to Nottingham and London.

God is so good to me....

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My orgy with my boyfriend's friend

My boyfriend has a list of gorgeous looking friends. I can't help it, but as a young, very horny, and eager 22yo, I just can't help and entertain my nafsu jantan!

Yesterday we had some weird conversation. When I said we, I mean my boyfriend and I lah. I asked him does he fancy of my friends. He bluntly said no!
What the f**k?!
Well I did in return said that I do fancy some of his friend. When I mentioned them by names, he knew it beforehand. But he was quite shocked when I said I probably might have one night stand with his friend who used to own a few Bed & Breakfast in BB area.
See, it's a another hint. Bed & breakfast!

The Silent Crack!

September 18 is the day my boyfriend and I celebrate our love! This is our second. But according to him it's our first. We had a BBQ dinner last year, on the same date to officially announce (but we didn't) our 2-become-1 relationship.

So yesterday, they weren't any BBQ dinner, or seat down dinner like I planned. We stayed home and watched TV. Had sex in the evening after we came back from pasar malam in Bangsar.

He is planning for a trip to Bangkok this December with me. To celebrate his 26th b-day on the 23rd and celebrate Xmas with me. I cannot confirm yes as I might be cruised for my annual family trip back to Sarawak. And I will have my new semester beginning too! I am scheduled to go to Singapore on the first weekend. I cannot give any green light to anything yet.

But thank you sayang. You've been a wonderful boyfriend.

Thursday, September 15, 2005

Mane-maje saje

So this week is a little bit slow for me compared to last week. My sayang is back from Kuching. So I spend a few days with him at Pantai Hill Park. We couldn't do much of activities, besides sex ler. I bought VCDs at the open-air market in Ss15 on Tuesday. My current favorite past time now is watching good movie, with good storyline.

I was watching Angela's Ashes the other day. I read the hard cover a few years back, during my Literature days. I so hate it, but I had too. So the other day was just another significant of remembering my past. The movie was not so much of me, but it did portryed how difficult life is. Duh!

We went to pasar malam last night to grab our dinner. Then, I again bought more VCDs. And to my delight, they sold Gol & Gincu! Yay. So I watched it last night. Sorry for being the cheap-skate one. Ashraff Sinclair is not really cute in it. But I was amazed with the lead actresses and the overall movie production. My darling said that these film will win honours next year.
For what? Promoting futsal, and lesbianism. Hurray!

Friday, September 09, 2005

Would you like my red ribbon?

I made my debut to contribute for the community when I attended Pink Triangle's MSM Group AGM last Sunday. I still remember my first visit to PT for it's weekly Sunday meetup. I was 17 then. I couldn't be bothered much to attend it regularly because everyone was old. But I knew deep inside my heart that one fine day I will contribute for the group, and of course for the Foundation's objectives.
My parents do not know of my these other duty. I couldn't careless.
At the AGM, I met a few faces of whom I have worked in the past for some of the group's activity. But I forgot their names! Then again, the inivitation to attend the AGM came from the big boss himself so I was there with a special invitation. I didn't care if I was not nominated for any post but what I know is that I will contribute wherever I can.
Summary, I was elected as the MSM Group's PR Rep alongside the senior guy Vin Tsun (pronounce Vin-cent). There you go, from now onwards I will be doing a few PR work for the MSM's group. Hopefully my contribution will do more benefit and would be able to pass the message across to all mankind!
A toast for me, my red ribbon and to you!

Thursday, September 08, 2005

Girlfriends - LOST!

Name:Mel
Age:21
Race:Chinese - American
Born:LA
Current Location:Singapore
Connection:Cheerleading







Name:Ruzie-muzie
Age:21
Race:Malay-Chinese-Japanese
Born:Tokyo, Japan
Current Location:Kuala Lumpur
Connection:Cheerleading








Name:Hudaa-ness @ Dadaa
Age:20
Race:Javanese - Malay - Melanau
Born:Kuching, Sarawak (I think)
Current Location:UiTM Melaka
Connection:Cheerleading











Name: Zee-ish
Age:20
Race: Malay - Melanau - Irish
Born: Miri, Sarawak
Current Location: London
Connection: Cheerleading

Success at cheerleading meet gievs sport a boost

SERI KEMBANGAN: Team All-Stars did the country proud when it won the new dance squad division in the 16th Annual British Cheerleading Association Championship held in Britain on July 29-31.
Competing against 292 teams from 70 countries, they also came up third in the senior co-ed intermediate division and sixth in the senior partner stunt division.
“We were up against powerhouses like the United States and Japan but we gave it our best shot,” said team adviser Ishak Z. Allan, adding that the team only practised for three months.
“I hope that this will be a great start for Malaysians to take the discipline as a serious sport,” he added.
Their success resulted in the formation of Malaysia Cheerleading Association, which aims to promote the sport.
Their patron, Deputy Minister in the Prime Minister’s Department Datuk M. Kayveas, said the sport would keep youngsters occupied and encourage them to be healthy both physically and mentally.
He also said the Government would give its full support to activities such as this, and praised the team for their first-rate performance.
“Initially it was difficult because of the cold weather and some of us got sick, but it was worth it when we won,” said team captain Nadiha Mohd, 20.
Team All-Stars was Malaysia’s first team and also the sole representative from the South-East Asia region. The team, sponsored by SCP Management Sdn Bhd, comprised 13 members aged 16 to 22.
SCP and Team All-Stars are organising the SCP Cheer Emas competition on Nov 26-27, which is open to all and will be made an annual event.
The competition also aims to introduce the sport nationwide.
The winners will get RM3,000 cash and a trophy.

Tuesday, September 06, 2005

My night of beauty with purpose

I attended the preview of Miss Malaysia/World 2005 last night, at the glamarous The Loft.
I was invited virtue being the entertainment slot provider of the evening. I arrived right on schedule, at 9-ish. The lady in-charge by the name of Jessica from FACES magazine greeted me at the front door with full glitz and glam. A small crowd was helplessly waiting to que in but me being the queen-wannabe cut through the line.
My girls who were to perform the opening number before the parade of the 18 finalist weren't there yet so I had to minggle around with the unknowns. What I know was a friend of mine is the event organiser for Miss Malaysia this year so I was searching for him high and low. I asked Jessica for Mr. Thana, and guess what she grabbed me by the hand and pulled me up-front to the VIP table. There was he with the 18 quite beautiful girls!
Mind me, despite the recent years of handful of beauty pagaent I personally think Miss Malaysia/World is still the best! The 18 girls vying for this title are not your ordinary girl next door. One of them is a PhD holder, a handful are graduates from accountancy, law and business. Only the 2-3 young ones are under-grads. The average height of these girls is 5'8 and when I was standing amongst them, I felt tiny!
Anyways, the preview event was an hour late as the guets of honour Dato Vincent Lee was still on his way to the venue! Dato' is the franchise holder of Miss Malaysia/World.
The winner will represent Malaysia at Miss World in December, at Sanya China.
I personally met last years winner, Gloria Ting. She's a Sarawakian from Sibu. Like me, except that I'm from Miri. She speaks very fluent English, with her Canadian accent as she grew up in Canada during her teenage years. Click the below for her profile at last years Miss World pagaent.

http://www.missworld.tv/bio/bio.sps?iBiographyID=11545

Saturday, September 03, 2005

My Birthday Wishes Reviewed

I was going through my past entries, and I clicked February 2005. It was my Birthday on the 17th. And I didn't realised until later that I did wrote my wish online. A recap:

I'm 22yo today. And my wish is...
1. that my team, All Stars, will be able to get enough funding to go to UK this July for the UK International Cheerleading Championships! Thanks to my sayang, and a few others we actually did went!
2. that I will be able to secure scholarship for my Degree in Mass Communiation. Sucked! I might have to enroll to UiTM, Shah Alam in Dec!
3. that I will be rich in health, love and relationship. Yes, yes, yes! Is it?
4. that I will do great at my theatre debut, Jalan Impian in July.Produced by Farah Sulaiman and Directed by Sandra Sodhy. Again sucked! My contract was terminated!
5. that I will finally get a cat of my own! Yes! Thanks to sayang again, I have a cat name Joey!

Another Rude Awakening (continued)

So now he knows.
When I first decided to write about my personal life, without missing any bit I was making a very bold steps. And I would eventually realise that one fine day, my beloved boyfriend would know about this blog and reads all the dirty secrets. The devil me.
I've had some friends asking me how is he taking it? What do you think?
Let me put it this way, imagine you are my boyfriend and that you knew that he has an online blog where he writes about everything! So one fine day, you eventually came across the blog and found out that he has been to sauna, sleeping with any tom, dick and harry!
How would you feel?
His respond? He's a little okay with it. He knew the urge of being a young 22yo gay man living in the metropolitan city. He gave me an advise that I shouldn't be doing much, and that I would not play emotions with any other guys. Of which I am not. I'm just horny!
I know I am a terrible boyfriend at this point. I'm selfish, I'm blonde freak and I'm just plain stupid! I don't want to lose him very much, after what we have been through the past 1.5 years. He emailed me after reading this blog last night. No wonder he was not picking up my calls, and for the first time in HIS-tory he never called me at 11pm!

Note: When I am not staying over at his place, he would be calling me every
other night between 11.00 - 11.30pm and have our loverbirds chat.
This has been a regular practise since June last year. Don't ask why, but I love it.
I know he could be reading this post, or maybe not until I meet up with him again maybe tomorrow or Monday. But whatever it is, I would want to make the relationship go one notch up. I can't help saying it now, I love you Ishak!

Friday, September 02, 2005

Another Rude Awakening

Dear bloggers,

As you might notice, I have been writing sincerely on this blog. Having my life shared with others whom I might not even know where he/she is makes it an interesing affair.

My boyfriend found out about my blog yesterday. I did not purposely gave in, but it was just pure coincident. I can't hide from him forever of any of my dark secret. I guess by now he must have read all my dirty trips to the saunas, and that I am actually a sex freak!

I love you sayang. "You're still the one....." - Shania Twain


Im not giving up on this only till my last breathe.

Its back once again!

Thursday, September 01, 2005

Say it loud, and proud, MERDEKA!

As I got back from my Melaka trip, I have no blinking idea what was to happen the eve of Merdeka. The original plan was to have a sit down dinner with 4 other friends, of which the host sms-ed me that he would be finishing rather late from work that night. Well kiss goodbye to nice dinner and chat then.

I didn't give up on hope yet, as I know when it comes to celebration, it must be celebrated maybe not with grand but perhaps a little fun. So I sms-ed a few other friends for thier plans. One was going to LQ and the other, is flexible. So I demanded for Musictheque!

I invited this one guy to join us for the eve. He agreed at first and chicken out half an hour before the meeting! Strike one!

So this close abang of mine, insist that perhaps I can just hangout with his bf's friend. I didn't mind as long I have someone to chill with and not be a lamp post. So this friend of thiers came, he was okay2. But he did not necessary had to put on his foundations right?

After the fireworks and all, we were heading to MT when out of a sudden that friend was gone out of sight. They tried to reach him on the phone, it couldn't get through. Ok, whatever.
Strike two!

At MT, I had to enjoy the night alone. I couldn't have my favorite place (the pole) because all this slutty wannabes already got hold of it tightly! Suck. So I went to the DJ consule, and got myself standing up on the speaker box. I dance all night there. The boys from Ruine and Poise were there, so thank God! We dance. I had a few eye contacts, but well nothing came up!

We finished at 5. An ex whom I have dated before was there. He was so nice, and invited me to chill at Malibu with his bf.So weird and ironic, but I'm ok. So we chatted. Until, I had this focus on one guy who wore green. I knew it, this is it the right time and not strike three! So out of the blue, I took a Starbucks voucher from my wallet wrote my number and asked this Bangla steward to pass it to him.

Of course it took him to smile first and aknowledge me presence, than that I wrote my number. I left earlier, passed by him and shook hands! He sms-ed me when I was on the way back. He was 19.

Finally, I can yell it loud and proud, "Merdeka!"

Tuesday, August 30, 2005

Melaka, bandar bersejarah

I am currently writing from a cyber cafe at Melaka Central.

My dad gave me a family assignment to do, that was to visit one of my cousins here and just to make sure that she is adjusting well with her new environment. She's 19yo, very blur, but was offered to study at one of the Government funded institutions.

Well this trip is really interesting. As my last trip here was to meet this one Baba guy. I was 18yo then. When I flashback again to that exact moment, I thought I was a dumb boy being manipulated by this old man. Dame.

But then I did enjoy the short stay. He brought me around to tourists places and such.

Today, I didn't need that. I'm already a big boy. If dad told me this much much earlier I could have just set a side appoinment and meet another cuter Baba guy!

Thursday, August 25, 2005

Exploring the Japanese cuisine

I met my very first Japanese guy who speaks the fag language. His name is Shinobu san, 27yo from the city centre Tokyo. He was in Kuala Lumpur for 4 days summer vacation. Shinobu, a computer engineer by profession was at Thermos for the very first time.
Sorry, I decided not to write further on this episode until I get a reply from his email and a picture of him. Then I will share all the tiny bits and pieces. Cheers!

Best Merdeka TV-Ad 2005

This year I nominate Malaysia Airline's advertisement to win the Best Merdeka Ad 2005. Sorry Petronas and your Yasmin Ahmad crew. Buzz off. Your add tak jadik this time around!

We all know the past few years, Petronas has been producing well top-notch adverts of which would put tears to our eyes. But this time around, Petronas puts a little twist. No more crying...
If you don't recall which one am I referring to, let me recap both ads...

Petronas ad goes:
this 2 boys standing outside a shoe shop. An uncle spoke to them on buying it. Sikap bantu-membantu. He told of his story, he was handicapped. No right leg, only with the plastic support. So he told that throughout his life, he never gave up...blah blah...he ended going to his Mercedez Benz and looked to the boys saying...."ingat, selalu berjalan ke hadapan, bukan ke belakang!" What?!

Malaysia Airlines ad goes:
Started off with the typical history clips on how we earn Merdeka, and snips of our late Tunku Abdul Rahman. But the best thing is...it started of with..."menghantar rakyat Malaya ke tanah asing..." which was interesting. It was about the cabinet's decision to send teachers to train at Kirkby, England. They were sent to be professionally trained, and they were the officially first Malayan citizens to be told of the independence date...Not those in Melaka yah. So it ended with the snips of these teachers whom some are still alive till today...some of whom are also Tan Sris and Datins! Now, that is real Merdeka ad!

My verdict:
MAS beats Petronas easily this time around!

Wednesday, August 24, 2005

How DESPERATE can I be?

I was watching Desperate Housewives yesterday, well I actually wacthed the whole series of yesterday last weekend. So I was just thinking about a few things.

1. I'm in a relationship crisis now, am I too desperate trying to break it off? I'm being the selfish one.

2. Knowing the fact I have lost a few pounds, got a new haircut, look better. Compliments coming in and so....well am I again too desperate to ask God to make me more beautiful?

Another case that made me look desperate. I went on mIRC for a casual after a long hiatus. I met this 19yo boy (Malay, MMU student, flex), who eventually gave his picture after a near 30 minutes chat. Gosh, I so love the boy. He's cute, very my type. Got his number after persuading. Disturbing him while he was in class. Again, another desperate situation!


I'm going to watch more of Desperate Housewives this weekend. (I hope my darling friend wouldn't mind me dropping by!) And perhaps get a few finer tips on how to control my desperate situations!

Tuesday, August 23, 2005

A people in step with progress

Read more of my native, the Lun Bawang of Sarawak.
STORY AND PHOTOS BY JAMES RITCHIE

EVER since becoming Christians, the Lun Bawang of Lawas have become exemplary citizens who would make any Malaysian proud.
When the Brunei rebellion in December 1962 broke out, Limbang and Lawas were the focus of the insurgents. Several Sarawak policemen and five British marines were killed in Limbang.

Guru Pantalusang (3rd left with dark glasses) with members of the bamboo flute band in the interior of Lawa in the 1950s. But the rebels were less successful in Lawas, thanks to the information passed by locals to a young District Officer Bujang Mohammed Nor. (Mohammed, now a Tan Sri, later became Sarawak state secretary.)
The locals, alerting the government about the impending attack two weeks earlier, helped nipped the rebellion in the bud with the arrest of a local leader. Former Police Field Force Sergeant Major Robert Ngawal Arun, 71, from Kampung Limbuak in Pengalih, said the police went as far as Bekenu to round up the rebels, and hundreds were arrested.

When the idea of a Malaysian federation was mooted, there was initially some resistance from the Lawas people. However, the support of the Lun Bawang from the rural interior proved crucial in swinging the state towards celebrating Independence on Sept 15, 1963.

Headman of the Trusan 200-strong Chinese community Penghulu Liaw Soon Teck, 51, said the Lun Bawang from the remote district of Lawas have evolved into a race of tolerant and progressive people after enduring decades of wars and pestilence.

Liaw, whose grandmother is Lun Bawang, said inter-marriages were common among the Chinese, Malays and Lun Bawang.

“In fact, most of the Chinese and Malays speak Lun Bawang as if it is their mother tongue. We have native relatives even in the most remote places,” said Liaw who estimated that there were about 5,000 Lun Bawang and another 1,500 Malays and Kedayans living in the Trusan region.
On this trip to Lawas, former RTM newscaster and journalist Charles Buas Dawat from Long Tukon, near Trusan bazaar, visited his Malay niece by marriage Dayangku Zaliah Bakar, 42, who runs a sundry shop in the Malay quarter of Trusan.

MP Henry Sum Agong (centre) at the Lawas native market with friends and community members. On the left is Michael Labo, the first Lun Bawang lawyer and on the right is Flavian Liaw from the municipal council. Dayangku Zaliah whose grandmother is also Lun Bawang said: “We are a multi-racial lot. Our Malay ancestors came from Brunei as well as Simanggang (Sri Aman) while serving the Brookes. We have many relatives among the Lun Bawang community. My cousin Awangku Omar who is part Lun Bawang, is a private secretary of a state cabinet minister Datuk Awang Tengah.”

A highly literate group, the 15,000 Lun Bawang in the Lawas district now boast of at least 400 people who have achieved academic excellence while taking up vocations in law, medicine, dentistry, engineering and teaching professions.

Many are graduates and diploma holders while a large number of Lun Bawang have become theologians and pastors (many graduating from the Lun Bawang bible college at Buduk Aru near Ba' Kelalan).

The first Lun Bawang politician to make a name for himself in the 1950s was the late Datuk Racha Umong, a former pastor and first local head of the SIB (Borneo Evangelical Mission or Sidang Injil Borneo). His son in-law, Michael Labo Buaye, is the first Lun Bawang lawyer.
Other influential members of the community are the late SIB president Pastor Kalib Besar who died in a helicopter crash in 2003, Dr Judson Sakai Tagal, a surgeon who died in the Bario helicopter crash last July, MP Mutang Tagal who is the older brother of Dr Judson and a lawyer by training, MP Michael Lisa Kaya who served two terms and Henry Sum Agong who succeeded Lisa.
The Lun Bawang Who’s Who list also include anthropologist Jayl Langub, deputy director of the Sarawak Museum Gilbert Ipoi Datan and retired assistant director of Information Department Paul Sakai whose wife Monica Pantulusang was the first nurse in Lawas. Her father, Bonia Pantulusang, founded the first Lun Bawang bamboo flute band.

The community also have a dentist in Dr Bob Baru, environmental lawyer Baru Bian, Shell engineer Robin Lusong and Ashton Samuel Satu, a lawyer turned medical health officer who was recently elected president of the Lun Bawang Association.

But the most renowed of all is Kuching-based William Ghani Bina who is president of the Sarawak Teachers Union, chairman of Cuepacs Sarawak, president of the National Labour Advisory Council, national vice president of Cuepacs and vice chairman (education) of the National Joint Council as well as panel member of the Industrial Court and member of the National Labour advisory council.

Temenggong Paris Kaya, 54, who replaced former Temenggong Bagul Lupong, 73, as the community’s paramount chief said that even though the Lun Bawang have made much progress in the past 10 years, they are challenged to keep abreast with the times.

“We have been blessed with a government that cares. We have received great benefits. But our people must not take for granted their wealth and prosperity they now enjoy. We must remember our humble beginnings,” he said.

Temenggong Paris said the lives of the Lun Bawang have changed for the better when they became Christians after an Australian Hudson Southwell started SIB in Lawas in the early 1930s.

He said that even though the Lun Bawang were role models for the other Dayak communities, they must not forget the struggles of their ancestors and their sacrifices to make Lawas safe and prosperous.

Added Henry Sum: “The key work is humility, a trait Dr Judson practised. Despite his demise, we must not lose hope and must carry on the good works he started. I too have a vision for my people and if we all work together, it can be achieved.”

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www.sorakmalaysia.blogspot.com is purely for the Malaysian cheerleading community. The first to do so, I hope to share cheerleading experiences with all fellow Malaysian cheerleaders and abroad.

I have been cheering since 2001. And I am currently the senior captain to Team Allstars of Malaysia. We are the shit, the best here! I am also coach to Sekolah Sri Garden's Shewanaz team. I am a big fan of Shirtliff and Dynamitez team in Malaysia, and Greenup County cheerleaders in the US of A. Of course not forgetting my Thai friends from Rangsit Universiy!

Cheer is my life. Not stopping, and will move up the ranks! The next big step, is the birth of the Malaysian Cheerleading Association!

Team Allstars of Malaysia 2006 Agenda:
1. Indonesia Cheerleading Tour, Jakarta, January
2.Cheer Camp at Rangsit University, Bangkok, March
3.Cheerleaders of America Invitation Competition, Florida, April
4.2nd Cheer Clinic with Rangsit University, Kuala Lumpur, June
5.17th Annual International Cheerleading Championship, Nottingham, July

One of Us!

Westlife singer Mark Feehily has admitted that he is gay.

In an interview with The Sun today, the 25-year-old said: "I want people to know the truth about my sexuality. I am gay and I'm very proud of who I am. I'm not asking for any sympathy, or to be a role model to anyone else."

"I simply felt it was the right time for me to let people know the truth. I've never tried to hide who I am from anyone, but I'm a very private person and in the past I haven't felt the need to say anything about my sexuality. But I want people to know I'm very comfortable with who I am."

The star added that the rest of the chart-topping group were aware of his sexuality and had "been there for me when I needed to talk things through."

Feehily is currently dating 21-year-old Kevin McDaid, former singer with the boyband V.

Happy Birthday Darling!


He was my cheer-ling, club-ling and bro-ling who now resides at the beautiful beach of Kota Kinabalu, Sabah. 25 years old today! Missing you so much. I was at Musictheque last weekend, and knowing that if you were there things could have spiced up! Wish you the best and may you find greater love there!

One Heart I Hate to Break

I am celebrating my 2nd anniversary with my boyfriend in the month of September. Knowing that we have been through the high's and low's, but the fact is after all this I am feeling drown.

He is 36 in December. He lives with his older gay brother, who happens to be a pain in the ass to me. Only recently that he aknowledge my presence in my bf's life. The pressure I get from his family alone is big enough. His sister expects me to be with him like forever! His father always asks about me, where am I, what I'm doing and things like that! The mom, I don't think she likes me.

He is a so-called theatre producer, and his last production was in June 2004! And what has he been doing since then? Nothing. Although he also has a small business, selling traditional anyaman baskets and boxes imported from Bali. This business is shared with his close friend, Al-pacino.

This year, he has been an angel. The UK trip was mostly thanks to his effort. He bought me gifts for my birhtday, for our anniversary, for all small occassions too.

I love him very much, but today my heart is sceptical about our future. I want to stop from all this attachment and be free once again. But I don't dare to delete the beautiful moments we shared. I'm 22, still young, still at the advantage of getting a new lover. But would I want to be a bitch and be selfish, and screw someone else life?

I have not decide on anything, but I am getting a time off from him. I have not told him directly but he knows I am having emotional problems with the relationship. He consulted me today, but I couldn't say a word out. Only a deep breathe, and smile politely to aknowledge his words.

He is in his worst period, counting all the other problems he encounters too. I am not making any decision now.

"Let love lead the way....." Spice Girls

The Rebirth

I had a pleasant weekend. On Friday, I met a friend for casual chat at Starbucks KLCC. I have not seen him for so long, and that was due to my cheering schedules. Anyways, we planned for a suppose to be pyjama's party on the Saturday.

I sms-ed a few close friends, of which only 2 turn up that night! Even 1 replied saying that I was a sore loser for not attending the rave party at PD! Oh please. Rave party suck big time!

Saturday night, I cooked the usual meal we have. I know is a big letdown, but given the time frame and the choices of food to cook I only had the pasta in mind. The meal lasted for Sunday's lunch!

We watched Desperate Houswives that evening. The 4 of us sitting, glued to the TV trying very hard to stay tuned with the story lines. I had a few minutes of concentration, but lost it when I found these friend who sat next to me arousing me....with his hands rubbing my back. Well, I got so sensitive and thought that I should have just asked him to leave the TV room and adjourne to the bedroom for a quickie!

But I can't, because he was my abang angkat!

I met him when I was 17 (2000). I still remembered, we chatted from the MIRC channel. I plan to meet him up on the final day of my SPM examination. It was a date, and a celebration. We met, and he brought me dinner at Chilli's KLCC. Still remember what I ate, and where we sat.
That night he kissed me, and send me home. And that was it.

I met him again, a year later or so, outside this now defunct club Velvet. Perhaps he was more keen in me then because of my new image. Well I would say I have lost a few weights, went for a series of whitening facial and a new hairdo. So we kept in touch. I didn't put too much of hope then. But our series of keeping in touch, turns out to be more indepth. He was someone I turn to for a piece of mind.

I'm glad that we remained good friends until today, although I know that we will never be together as a lover, or companion, but still deep down in my tiny hole heart I hope I can get him to bed once!

Friday, August 19, 2005

Wednesday, August 17, 2005

Me and Putster!



Puteri Nurul Nadirah, better known as Puteri @ Pu3 in short, or Putster OR goldfish!

I met her at California Pizza Kitchen in 2003. We were having this history making meeting, with the popular Star sub-editor Beverley Hon. A few aspiring pioneer cheerleaders met her to form the Malaysian dream. The birth of Team All Stars!

This picture was taken when we were at Nottingham. She is just my bestest girlfriend. As we PLUs have our very own a fag-hag, well she's mine!

I have seen her groom the past 2 years going to three now. From that bf to this guy, and now Mr. Bobo whom I think is really fetch! Never complimented this, but I like his selamber style and his hair! Big hair!

Whatever it is, she will be a friend I will be in touch till the very end. You know why? Not that we just love cheering, but we have this chemistry. A chemistry only invented by the two of us!

One most memorable moment is, we were up in Genting and left the whole team in the room and went for Starbucks...and later got scolded by captain (I think dia jealous!). Pu3 is so bottom, but hey! Isn't she suppose to be! Hehe. I kept one pic of hers, which she looks really like a goldfish! I will update on that, perhaps upload it here.

Owh, did I say that she is the prettiest of them lot?...Oooops I hope nobody from the team is reading this. Huhu.

Putster, love ya! Selamat Hari Jadi

The Phase

I skipped class last week, as I took the opportunity to laze at home. But I was scolded by my parent (my mom lah!). Thank God dad is not home.

Anyways, I did went to class yesterday and today. I went back from afterwards, and didn't bothered to join the rest of the classmates to do some discovery at Berjaya.

Yesterday, arrived home at 1 and took lunch. I cooked actually. As I was trying to save the food and do not want to waste, I decided to just prepare soup with vege and big prawns. Ate while watching Mona Lisa Smile featuring Julia Roberts and Kirsten Dunst. Twas an okay 2 hours drama for me.

Today, arrived home a bit later. Didn't cook lunch, cause I had a brunch at our not very popular cafeteria. The food suck, and is so bloody expensive. But I guess I spend more there than anyway because the nearest mamak stall from the campus is 7mins walk. Please, the sweat will clear my foundations away. So, today decided to watch the CD2 of The Terminal. Main cast Tom Hanks. But the CD went berserk after 18 mins, so I switch to The Hour. And guess what, I slept on the sofa afterwards.

I miss Sherwood!


Both shots were taken from the Receptionist entrance.
This is one of the residence at Nottingham University, the official accommodation for the International Cheerleading Championships 2005.

Team Allstars of Malaysia was put to stay at the Sherwood residence. My room is on the 2nd floor, 3rd window from the left.


This pictures is the Dining Hall, and also the Residence Bar. The food served for breakfast and dinner is typical western. And well, we were rightfully served rice on our last night! Hahaha...

My first day of eating was not to my liking. I was not used to eat, and the thought of having nasi lemak kills me! One of my girls shouted, "I nak makan Nasi Lemak Antarabangsa lah! Jom!".....Gila kah!

Now that I'm back, Im missing every minute I spend there. I had a room to myself. The bed was very comfy, and each evening when I look at the green field seeing other teams practising their routine makes it like in a dreamland! I mean cheer-land lala thing! Hey, you might think I'm crazy but well I'll asmit it now I'm a cheer freak! Peduli ape...

Sunday, August 14, 2005

Party at 17th Floor

I was suppose to spend my night at a frens house, watch TV and perhaps have sex. Instead he turn me down for a party at where I live! Shit. This is more juicy!

I asked if I can join, he said nope because it was only for 2 person. Sial. So I hantar lah sms "pleeeease".....looks desperate. I thought it would be organised by the plu guys on the 8th floor, sekali I found out it was that cute Sarawakian guy on the 17th floor! When my friend was there for 15mins (I think), according to him everyone was so kekwat so I decided to go, and of course nak jugak kekwat!

This guy on the 17th floor (I live on the 19th) has been my neighbour for the past 5 months or so. He used to be here, but left to Holland for a good 10 years before he decided to come back. He's 36yo Mirian, just like me! I met him a few times in the lift.....and the most we could speak out, "Hi"..."Bye".....gosh!

Then came last night.....I wore something ruggard (so I won't look too adik2). Padahal, when I was there....there were so many adik2! I felt I was like in Blue Boy! Coz everyone whom I know at club, were there. It was just a normal party, someone was leaving to somewhere, but who cares. I got my drink, I ate the peanuts and got to know the host pretty well.....

I think he ajak me main with him unofficially kot! Next time I see him in the lift, I'll reconfirm.

Wednesday, August 10, 2005

One of them...

I was at this charity gala dinner last Monday night, esclusively for the people in the industry only. When I said the industry, I mean....them. (refer to the picture and you get what I mean)

I received an invitation from a friend's friend, who happens to be one of them. Clearly enough, I am not one of them. I met some not one of them at the gala. Classy event. It was held at one of the 4-star hotel in town, and the dinner was to fund raise for them activity.

See the picture, them was the MC! I enjoyed the whole night, strutted with great entertainment. I think better than Britney's concert in Tokyo! The major highlight of the event was the Miss Ibans 2005! Don't ask why Ibans! And the winner is....

Miss Tania Brigade-Tee Sheikh Abdul Salam, a 24yo, Law graduate from a university in England. She dazzled the crowd with her great talent in singing and dancing, to the tune of..... Beyonce's Crazy in Love. Her low and husky voice (*hint) was just enough to put the RM125++ worth crown on her tiny precious head.

Tania will represent the Ibans, at the Miss World Ibans 2005/2006 at Florida US of A this coming August 31st! Way to go Tania. Make it a double celebration for all Malaysians...

If you wish to compete at next years Miss Ibans, please feel free to contact the Ibans Co. Ltd. or perhaps email me and I'll forward your resume.