This year, Christmas is in town after 3 years having celebrations in kampung. My uncles, aunts and cousins from Miri and Lawas arrived over the weekend and have one small family gathering. Home was decorated as though it was given a new breathe of air. The Xmas tree was prettier than ever. Mum baked 8 different cakes including carot and Australian fruit cake.

I enjoyed every bit, despite the constant hours of serving our guests. But the time spent with my cousins especially was indeed one true moment since some of them are leaving to Sudan, Africa as my aunt got posted there for 3 years with Petronas.

Every year, Christmas has always been the only time that I can really rely on having the special occasion with my family members. Although I did tried to squeeze some time for socialising bit. On the eve, I visited Laqueen for God sake!

I wish the new year will bring me good stuff. I mean everyone would be hoping for a new start, with many resolutions. Gowd, I remembered mine from last year and I don't really recall if I actually did accomplished all of it.

I read the Chinese horoscope for 2008, and the year of Rat would be one same year for Pigs. FYI, I was born in the year of Pig (1983). According to the book, I would be enticed to try new things in life. And above all, money should be spend wisely! I know what I want to accomplish next year, and one of it would be my graduation day!

Finally!

My Christmas Tree

I'm still so much glued with the whole Miss World frenzy and just last week the MOST SEXIEST WOMEN ALOVE 2007 was announced on globalbeauties.com

440 beauty queens, from the 5 grand slam beauty pagaents of the year (which includes Miss Universe, Miss World and Miss Earth) vied for the Top 36 spots. And with the two major pagaent winners for this year was from the Asia continent, it didn't do much justice for this particular award. Of the 36 places, only 4 beaty queens from Asia made it. 3 from Miss Universe, and 1 from Miss World.

Jeng jeng jeng.


The three queens from Miss Universe is the winner from Japan, the top 5 winner from Korea and the top 15 finalist from India.



And the only Asian queen from Miss World is.....Deborah! Surprising is it, when the Miss World 2007 herself from China did not even make it. This is the true winner!

I was in Singapore the last weekend for 5 days. I was there to attend a cheerleading coaching certification. But at the same time, took it as a Christmas break. And I was quite lucky to have my dear friend K with me.

I arrived in the wee Friday morning, having all the miscalculation of the bus ride from KL to Singapore. It resulted in me having to wait on the street for nearly 2 hours for the first bus to town which was at 615am. This is me at Chinatown, Mosque Street where I stayed the next few nights. It took me an hour or so to find a suitable place for me. There were few ones before but some was just sleezy, and overpriced.

K arrived Saturday morning 4am. I had only 4 hours sleep and which was not enough for me because the course duration was from 9am til 6pm! I kinda overslept when I was suppose to greet him at the Chinatown MRT.

This is at Clark Que MRT station. Or say the area surrounding. I didn't really enjoyed this part of the place because it was just streets. The nearby attraction is the Boat Quey where all the river scenary can be seen. It is so opposing that the place is only beautiful in the night because of the lights.

Taking pictures, posing unnecessary we want. This is in the MRT or was it that we were waiting for one. Be like a real tourist.

I don't like the part where you just missed the train, and wait for the next one. And the best part when there is just so many people. Resah!

Me at Alvin De Castro class when he had a workshop in KL few years back. Check me out upfront!

MISS WORLD 2007 GRAND FINAL will be telecast live on Starworld tomorrow night and I cannot freaking wait to watch how Deborah will fare.

I have visited a few reliable pagaent websites and bookmarks, and I have actually summed up my Top15 for tomorrow. Jot it down and make comparison when it is announced tomorrow night!

TOP 15 SEMIFINALIST (see how my prediction went)
1. Angola (1st runner up)
2. Brazil (no entry)
3. China PR (Winner)
4. Dominican Rep (top16)
5. Ghana (top16)
6. Jamaica (top16)
7. Malaysia (top16)
8. Mexico (2nd runner up)
9. Peru (no entry)
10. Philippines (no entry)
11. Trinidad & Tobago (top5)
12.Puerto Rico (top16)
13. Scotland (no entry)
14. Venezuella (top16)
15. USA (top16)

Surprise entry was Sweden, Hong Kong China and Grenada.

And the TOP5 FINALIST (Either one will take the crown)
1. Jamaica
2. China PR
3. Malaysia
4. Dominican Rep
5. Mexico

Only two of 5 from my prediction made the top5. The reason being the best candidate from each continent make the final, in this case I had representative from only two continents for they were the most outstanding. Miss World Organization was contradicting in earlier statements in the early rounds when they promise that there were no more continental winners to decide top5 winners since it deprives certain good candidates of a top5 finish. Hence, Malaysia, Jamaica and Dominican Rep lost. Pity.

MY MALAYSIA OVER THE WEEKEND

I consider the weekend to be the most outrageous in the recent few weeks. First up in the morning I had a text message from a friend who asked me to switch my telly to Al Jazeera channel. I know I was watching the correct channel, and the screen was showing some street with many people making a riot. Wait, I know that street! It's Jalan Ampang!

I wouldn't want to write more on this. My 2 cents of thought, its just a disgrace. If people my people who only populate to 0.0005% of the total population here, and we are really greatful with what is around. So why make a big fuss over some personal gain, dragging so many of thier people on the street. Kalau pesta ok jugak, at least it coincides with the National 50years Independence. But not this kind of pesta please. Mak malu!

Move over, we ought want to just celebrate something else that would be more meaningful to Malaysians. Our number one women singles shuttler Wong Mew Choo, finally break the duck by gaining her first ever international championship title. Not one ordinary but the super series China Open. Mew Choo came through to the finally beating current world number one, Xiefeng and also Olympic champion Zhang Ning enroute to the champion glory.

Mew Choo was my classmate at Sri Garden ( the former Akademi Badminton Malaysia). I knew she would make it big one day because she was one determine girl, plus she had a good physique. Now we might not only need to depend on the men for Olympic gold. We have Mew Choo too!
And finally, our Miss Malaysia at Miss World is doing so fine there. This is her in the final round for the Miss World Top Model fast track event which was eventually won by host, China PR. Not bad for Deborah as she is currently the only four contestant who has made it for at least 3 out of 4 fast track finals. The other 3 are Mexico, Jamaica and China PR. The new Miss World would definetly be from these four girls.

BLACKOUT PARTY - NOT SO

The anticipation was so so high, despite the numerous occasion that I had the gut feeling there would be a raid at the party. Some said the announcement of the party was too soon and it was an ample time for the polices to make their preparation.

In the first case, I think there is no problem with having parties as long these clubs abide by the rules. I don't see why some people are so afraid of the raids especially when they are just the patron and not by far chance are doing anything wrong. We're plainly exercising our rights to club. Isn't it?

So a few friends back out of going, but my urges was still strong. Thanks to Kay for being patience enough to accompany, with a Singaporean friend who was there too with his boyfriend.

The first thing I saw when I went up the stairs was seeing the management guys holding up torch lights in thier hands. I thought these is going to be a hell of a party. Yeah right! Padahal, it was just one gimic shot to me. The dancing floor was already filled up by 12.45am and the crowd was surprisingly enjoying every bit. So mind the raid rumours bit. Let's have some fun.

I got this tiny lights where you wear them on your fingers like a ring, and laser lights would flash out. It cost me 3piece for RM5. Got 2 pairs for both of us, just for the fun of it. Apparently, not everyone was so cool with thier accesories. I only saw this one guy who had sunglasses with lights. Ape motif pulak pakai sunglasses in a blackout area?

I would be lying if I didn't actually went up the podium and flashed my lights, but what turn me down was the music. I thought DJ Ivan was the guru, just last night it proved me wrong. He played some sleezy tracks and which in the end I have to give up my space on the podium to some boy who was so desperate to go up on the podium.

The show was good as compared to the previous two weeks, I mean you can't blame them for being good since its their periuk nasi. The opening act though was great, performed by the SYTYCD finalist. Forgotten his name, but I used to do dance shows with him before. Met him outside right after the show as I intended to go back before being tortured by boredom. He said, "Eleh, biasa je tadi tuh!". I'm like, "Hmmmmm....you kan superstar!".

We left slightly around 215am. I was really bored so we strolled up to McDonalds Bukit Bintang when out of nowhere this two boys was actually cruising us. Wait, was it cruising us or just me?! It tooked about 15minutes for the chase and smile saga to run until everything was answered. Apparently the boy was meeting someone else who was clubbing at Blueboy. And he thought I was that guy as we kind of shared some simillarity. But I left laughing out loud when the guy who came was a little bit bapuk!

Today I went back to campus to collect my previous semester result. I was in the train, nervous, but yet at the same time thinking how jubilant I would be if I really hit the 3.5 pointer.

To cut the chase, one of the 6 subject I took scored a C and which actually pulled down my grade to 3.246 now. I was quite dejected when I saw the points, but at the same I was relief that I still a semester to write off my points up higher. I mean it is not the end of everything, perhaps it is true to the saying that whatever you reap, you sow. Or was it the other way round.

I'm just glad this thing will be over soon, and once classes are over is moving on to the corporate world. Although I still have the burning desire to continue my studies especially to penetrate into a special field like communication, but this would all depend how things turn out next year.

When I was a young boy, I always wanted to be a pilot. Because I can fly all over the world. But when my eye sight fared badly, thanks to television and book reading in the middle of the night the dream will always be one.

As I entered teenage hood, all this glamor lifestyle hit me. I wanted to be this and that, as long it has to do with glam. But when I began to realize there was more in life that I can do, it is not necessary that I needed the glam. What mattered most is to actually contribute yourself and everything within you and surrounding you happen.

I want to be an academician. Someone to lead the young generation. Teaching them about life, before they can smell and feel life for themselves. Like a sergeant preparing his armies for combat. I want to be that.

That is me.

A first local short gay film will be aired privately this coming next month. Find the details below. I'm not too sure who could be contacted for reservations and such but I'm pretty sure its worth the watch. Check the preview.

Date: 16 December (Sunday)
Time: 7pm
Venue: MIA House (Red Bungalow behind the Nasi Kandar Pelita, Jalan Ampang - nearby KLCC)

WHO WAS AT LAQUEEN LAST NITE

1. I was there with two close friends. One a wannabe-dragqueen-but-never-happens friend and the other gay-friend-who-is-the-opposite-of-me friend. The later was there with his Sarawakian ex boyfriend. Oh, another guy came and join the group like midway. Cute boy, but maybe just a bit childish for me.

2. Someone I still fancy from Bangsar, with his friends. I saw him with a new guy. Well I was abit jealous but hey, who am I to him now anyway. At least he had the courtesy to come up to me and gave me a kiss on the chick. I still miss him but I think the whole world is not judging things well between us furthermore its just a complicated one.

3. Another one who is related to the number 2 guy. I know of him long ago before the above. He was more like the kinky dream guy, because he had what it takes to be taken to bed with me. I mean physically wise he was the perfect man for me. Bald, goattee, tough, rough. Did I ever mention he had tattoos too?

4. A cheerleader, whom I trained with 2-3 years back. Then he was thin scrawny but after he transferred to MMU Melaka, he just bloomed into a well defined young man. Well still consider him as a boy lah, still shy 19yo. So adik-adik. He was around with me to catch up with what was happening.

5. Some Malay chap I know from the asshole. The guy who actually took my ex away from me. Well incidentally that night (the night like hell - refer back old posts), this friend of mine introduced me to him. Actually we knew of each other before but maybe it didn't launched well because I was not really his type then. We're keeping in touch on g4m now, chatting.

6. The dancers, these 2 guys who supposed to put fame on me at Laqueen which actually didn't do that well too. I was on the podium with them, but the music was terrible so we weren't really on a square off instead more like being a perasan chic on the podium. Hmmm.

7. One guy who actually gave his business card to me. I thought he was cute in the first place. I mean he had this Chinese Malay mix look plus the goattee which was the add point. He was at the bar when I arrived. We were late so he was actually sitting at the place where I intended to be at. Later on, we were actually introduced by another acquaintance. This guy, a lawyer based in Serdang was a chatty box and then I realised he was actually not my type! An abang who is flamboyant. Gowd. I threw the business card on the streets of Sultan Ismail.

8. One guy I know from g4m. He was doubted as the Papa Diva because he is married and now divorced with one son, and attempting to enjoy his gay life. So this Papa has many many friends, I mean he knows like every Tom, Dick and Harry there. He invited me to one of his gathering at Lake Queen (Tasik Permaisuri). Guess who I bumped into there? My first boyfriend! Fcuk!

9. One guy who I don't get his name until today. Remember last week I gave my drink to him for ice breaking purpose, well it didn't hit well today. Supposedly last night we should be making conversation. But non. Apparently we share the same hangout spot. So I guess I will have to practise my get-to-know-the-other speech for next Friday. He was there with his boyfriend, and friends. Oh, one tragedy. What is one fine fashion rule no-no?? I was wearing this Seed shirt, where his boyfriend did too. I think I look better. Enough said.

10. To round up the 10 guys (though I know more), was this one guy I know from last week at the mamak. He was there with his round of big size friends. I wasn't comfortable again, because he was there with his partner! Although they share an open relationship, but it just don't really work for me. Not now.

MY HOT PICKS FOR MISS WORLD 2007!Miss Mexico and Miss Malaysia

My all time favorite girl band is back, making Headlines! Yup that is the title of the new track from the 5 most celebrated girls in the late 90's! Headlines (Friendship Never Ends) and the Spice Girls Greatest Hits Album is out now in store! And don't you think the ad is a little bit hilarious. I could not stop laughing!

I was swimming the night before. But before doing some laps, I went for a smoke. And around the bend at the pool area stood three man. One of it to be of very famillar. Then I figured out after a minute, he was the former neighbour at my block whom I shagged years back! It was one embarassing moment. I mean I was about to tear my clothes down to my swim trunks, to what? Lure him back to the the nearby toilet for a quickie?

I quickly finished my puff, so that he would not see me. I'll just trash myself into the pool and do some quick laps and buzz off before he could say a word.

In between the laps, I managed to peek. Well I think he was too while making his conversation with the two straight looking man. I think it is business talk. And indeed it was.

As the two man was leaving, he was walking towards me and my heart pumped! Suddenly, "Hey Ben!"

Apparently, he was negotiating to buy a place. And I was a little bit shocked that he was hunting down at the old condo we are living in. But whatever it is, what made me write this was he was asking me a few things like what am I doing and stuff.

And he made me to recall the last time we met, in bed. Not literally but it was obvious. Then he popped, "How old are you now?". I said twenty-four.

"Gosh, you're old huh!"

He left me wondering in the pool. Freezing to cold as I stood in the middle of the pool. Wandering, and wondering again. Yes, it has been a while. I'm not old just one growned up young man. A handsome one.

L-R: Philippines, Mexico and Malaysia (apparently Deborah roommate is Miss Manila girl)

The Top20 at the Miss World Beach Beauty, could you spot Deborah?

The sash says it all, who stands out here? Malaysia Boleh!

Miss World 2007 grand final would be telecast live on Star World (Astro Chanel 7 11) on December 1!

MySpace Countdowns and MySpace Layouts from MakeYourSpace.com

How is Deborah doing at Miss World 2007?

I was just browsing through the cyberworld since I'm on my semester break. I digged whatever I can find in regards to the on going competition. So today I kinda compiled some of the top betting agencies in the world and where people place their bet on their favorites to win the big $$$. Find below the top5 favorites contenders and you'll be surprised where Deborah lies!

Centrebet
1. Dominican Republic 7.5/1
2. Jamaica and Puerto Rico 13/1
4. Malaysia and Lithuania 15/1

Ladbrokes
1. Puerto Rico 10/1
2. Dominican Republic and USA 14/1
4. Malaysia 20/1
5. India, Mexico and Venezuela 25/1

bet365
1. Dominican Republic 7.5/1
2. Jamaica 12/1
3. Puerto Rico 13/1
4. Malaysia 16/1
5. Mexico 17/1

unibet
1. Jamaica 8/1
2. Dominican Republic and Mexico 10/1
4. Malaysia 12/1
5. Brazil, N. Ireland, Puerto Rico and Venezuela 15/1

gamebookers.com
1. Jamaica 10/1
2. Malaysia, Dominican Republic and Mexico 11/1
5. Puerto Rico 13/1

intertops.com
1. Dominican Republic and Puerto Rico 13/1
3. USA 15/1
4. Malaysia 17/1
5. Jamaica, Mexico, Philippines and Venezuella 21/1

MySpace Countdowns and MySpace Layouts from MakeYourSpace.com

MISS WORLD 2007, Sanya, CHINA
Updates

MISS DOMINICAN REPUBLIC IS MISS WORLD BEACH BEAUTY

Just yesterday, the first of the five fast track qualifying event was held. Miss World Beach Beauty is the parade of 107 delegates in the swimming suit competition, and the winner qualifies automatically to the next round at Grand Final. The other fast track events are Miss Sporty, Miss Top Model, Miss Talent, and the Beauty with a Purpose Award.


From the 107 contestants vying for the first automatic place, 21 finalists made it to the next round. And the top 5 winners were Dominican Republic, China, Jamaica, Lithuania and Mexico. And the remaining finalists were:

1. Austria
2. Belgium
3. Brazil
4. Eutophia
5. Grenada
6. Italy
7. Japan
8. Korea
9. Lebanon
10. MALAYSIA
11. Mongolia
12. Phillipines
13. Spain
14. Trinidad & Tobago
15. Ukraine
16. Venezuella

Congratulations Deborah for making it to the top21 in this event. Definetly she would shine better in the next fast track event, Miss Sporty whereby she herself was an acclaimed runner in her schooldays winning gold medals. Good luck and Malaysia Boleh!

MY FLING BLING ENCOUNTER

Scene 1, Laqueen (Friday)

I was back to the night scene after disappearing thanks to my exams on Saturdays! I tagged along BabyJane and a close friend. BabyJane is my junior member from Uni and cheerleading team. I think he has taken me as a hardcore gay guru and initially to be writen down in his history book as the first one to bring him to a gay club! It was really a pleasure to show him around, and whatever the guys were doing that night.

But the best thing ever was that we were lepaking at the bar area where this one particular guy by the name Shah always hangout. That night he was there again (with the bf, I think) and friends who were a bit loud. Shah is the urban contemporary guy, to me. He can be mistaken for a mat salleh because his fair, and tall plus the coloured hair which made him a tailored one.

The best bit is, we always bump into each other and grin. Smile. Nod. But never get to talk. I was on the podium and I know he purposely went over through his friends just to dance by my side. You call that perasan, but I call that club sex. Club sex is a new term coined by me, where you meet meet guys at clubs every other night and just go crazy on the dancefloor. But with no further physical contact. It's more of the emotional (perasaness) bit. Shah is a UiTM grad, and works in KLCC. That's how deep my researched has been.

Laqueen now offers RM15 for two drinks. BabyJane only had one sip, so we kinda had one extra ticket. So what is the best way to spend in on a good investment. Not investment but just a nice cause. I got the extra coke, and actually gave to Shah. The coke was stood standing on the bar for like 15 minutes because I was still uttering whether or not I should do this. Sounds like in the movie bit and I was really freaking out, and shaking a bit when I actually tipped his shoulder and gave him the coke.

We finally spoke a word. He said thank you for the drink. Twice. And he left.

Scene 2, mamak (after Laqueen)

I met a few friends at Laqueen. Some I know from the sauna, one who was a friend's ex, some ex fling of mine, some juniors and the lists go on. I felt like home!

We left a quater after 3 for a drink. I engaged with this one friend from sauna, to have drinks with. And he was with this one gang of friend who apparently also do go to the same sauna in Brickfields. Destination was this one mamak next to the old Musictheque disco. Saw this one guy, whom my ex was once going crazy over. He looked a bit murung.

We had three tables with 10 totally different characters surrounding it. You can sum up 60% of us were overweight aka chub. Not me, but the others who there. This friend from sauna is actually a chub chaser so not surprisingly his friends too are around the same area. But one odd guy was the one who caught my attention. I knew he was a bit shy when we were being introduced. He came late after the trouble of searching for a parking space. TJ has a spectacle on, but he takes them off I feel that he can just fly off minue the underwear and grabbing me on his arms. And just fly! Think superman.

I left the group about an hour later, without having any conversation with TJ. But the non verbal behaviour was enough to know that our radar was communicating. True enough, 5 minutes as I was driving back home my friend from the sauna told me "TJ berkenan nak berkenalan dengan you."

Hmmmmm

Scene 3, one apartment in Ampang (post club)
Today I took the whole day to sleep. Take all the rest I could. Surprisingly I ignored food the whole day which became a personal battle. I put on 3 kilos after the Penang trip, and I really freaked out. So anyway, the rain didn't stop and home was quiet. Mom, dad and practically all human beings fled off somewhere and I was home alone.

I had some dvds I bought from Penang to run through but an sms from this one guy changed my plans. This guy from G4M texted me a week ago just before me leaving, and I remembered so well that he actually did not posted up any pic. I insisted for one after my reply, and he attached one later which I took him to pass my average guy test.

I drove up to his place, which was less 5 minutes. I have not met someone from the internet for so bloody long. And the excitement plus anxiety was ragging in me. I wore something out of norm because all my shorts was still in the laundry. Jeans was a no no because it was just casual coffee meeting. And since the weather was cold, I needed a sweater.

Zaky apparently became not just my average guy, he actually passed one up notch. Admit it some of us are not born to be photogenic, and same goes to him. To sum it up, he just looked much much better in person. He speaks fluent English, and an educated one. But only one fall point though that he is engaged to a woman.

According to him, this was a period of exploration before his marriage. Zaky was an interesting chat. Although time was short, we covered almost everything that made my brains drill. Headhunting, gay pastor, animation movie, threesome was some worth mentioning ones.

I would sleep with Zaky just for the sake of having sex and get it over and done with. But not someone to go further like TJ or Shah. Zaky is getting married and I dont want to be a mistress!

Miss Word 2007 saga has just begun, with the arrivals of 107 delegates late last week. The Opening Press Conference was held 2 days back, and already the worldwide media has already made thier personal favorites. Find above, the top 6 favorites who has the chance to grab the title this year! From L-R: MALAYSIA, Trinidad and Tobago, Lithuania, Angola, China and Russia.

Our Miss Malaysia, Deborah Henry is definetly doing very well at Sanya, China. According to the reliable beauty pagaent critic, GlobalBeauties, Miss Malaysia is a Top4 on The Royal Flush whereby 6 Miss World experts vote for their candidates they believe are closer to the crown. Miss Malaysia was also doubt as the perfect Miss World, a fashion model with a degree and a founder to a notable charity organization.

Fingers crossed! Hopefully Deborah will have better luck than Lina Teoh did in 1998!

Welcome to Penang! I was over there the last weekend for 4 days. On Saturday, right after my last exam paper I hurried myself with my backpack to the oldrailway station in KL. I was a little bit upset because the KTM service that very day was really slow. A snail could have reached much earlier! But anyway, I was excited for this planned trip as I was to meet my ex over there who was on a contract event job. This could complicate things, going for a holidays with your ex and what not. But I wanted a true companion and who else to be the perfect suite.

We stayed at Tanjung Bunga Beach Resort, thats 20 minutes from town and about 10 minutes to Batu Feringgi.

Enjoying the beach all I can! The last time I remember having fun on the beach was a decade ago in Miri. What else to make the fun one notch up with my perfect tou toech jump! Hah! These was the 13th shot anyway, my beloved cameraman was still adjusting to his new part time job.

Sorry, this is me in my poyo pose! It's like so mat rempit!

This is queing at the "best nasi kandar in penang" the Line Clear Nasi Kandar at Chao Rasta Street. I had a portion but I thought I had a better one at another nearby Nasi Kandar. Hmmmm.

Another food cuisine. The Famous Penang Chendol. Maybe because I was already blotted up with the other tiny bits of food I had on the street so the chendol didn't do much for me. Just opposite that stall stood another one which had the same "Famous Penang Chendol" tagline on their signage. But as I stood 5 minutes trying to consume mine, all the passer by eventually stops at the one where we were at. Interesting.

The last day, we went up to Penang Hill aka Bukit Bendera. The journey up on the hill railway train took nearly 20 minutes. It was slow and all you could do at that moment was to appreciate the surrounding nature.

This is acknowledgely the first batch of the railway train made of wood. The Penang Hill first started to roll in 1927 with the fund support from the British Government. It costs 1.6million straits dollars at that time to build the project.

What can you get out of true excitement? The pain! I fell down the slippery stairs of Bukit Bendera. Fcuk it all!

The last stop, the temple. I was already wired down but my ex so insisted to go. There was this huge bell where you can knock it and eventually you will be strucked with good luck. Do I really need one after my fall? No thanks.

This was a perfect present for the hardwork for exams I went through and I'm looking forward for my next trip to Bangkok in January! A 25th birthday gift!

I think I sealed myself as the neighbourhood's Eddie Brit (of Desperate Houseviwes)!

I got back home around midnite, and I remembered I need to return a call from my PLU neighbour. This neighbour lives 2 floors below my family unit. Known him for ages, but was not officially introduced until the boy I went out with, Nix (who left to study for UK) build the friendship.

So this neighbour, also a Sarawakian, from the same hometown is quite a friendly one. Jovial, outgoing. Arrogant sometimes. But to top it all, he is a nice person to lepak with.

So I made my returning call when I recharged my handphone. Apparently he said that there was someboday waiting anxiously for me. This is not the first time he has been luring me. There were a few other occasion that he was happily introducing me to his friends which are not my cup of tea. At all. But of course I cannot escape from the anticipation.

I made my way by the stairs. I entered, saw two guys I have never met before. One was totally cute, and the other was so so. I didn't know which was the one I was to be introduced too, but my eyes has already its sight. My neighbour then briefed me there and then that the other guy was actually someone whom I have contacted before on sms. I was confused, trying to connect all the dotes. Only then I realised the guy was the one who saw me at Laqueen and got my number from another friend of theirs.

At last, got to see him. Not bad lah. Obviously my neighbour was giving every minute the chance for us to be more intimate. But I was already dried up, parts of my body just want to laze and not do much.

The cute boy I mentioned was my neighbour latest interest. This neighbour passes your normal abang-abang type, and being a typical one, he is into anak ikan yang hot. Apparently this two has been going out for almost 2 months. But during our chilling session, the boy was obviously trying to get my attention. Then again, I was there to actually be introduced to the other guy which I actually had NO attraction towards to.

At 4am, my neighbour and his anak ikan tired down and left to bed. Leaving me all by myself with this guy. We chatted again until he actually pulled me to the guest room! The rest is history.

MISS WORLD 2007 IS BACK!
Nov 2 - Dec 1, Sanya, China

And guess what?! Our very own representative has already became the hot picks amongst beauty pagaents bookers worldwide! Meet Miss Malaysia World,
Deborah Priya Henry.

Age: 22
Occupation: Model
Height: 178cm

Deborah is a fashion model with a B.A. degree in Economy and Political Science from the University of Brisbane. She was born in Dublin and grew up in Kuala Lumpur,her mother is Irish and father Indian with roots in Australia. She is a keen sportswoman, playing volleyball and basketball, gained a gold medal in the Kuala Lumpur International schools athletic meet and received a “Sportswoman of the Year” trophy at school. She has founded a charity called “Open Doors” and at her twenty-first birthday party she asked her friends to make donations to “Open Doors” instead of bringing presents and was gratified by how much they raised. Deborah enjoys travelling, listening to music, reading, volleyball and cooking, creating dishes using Thai, Indian and Moroccan spices. She has a Labrador called Bailey and a mongrel called Twinkle. Her motto is “Do what you can do, given your capabilities and resources. Everyone can play a part in impacting the bigger picture, now and in the future.”

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After all the wait, finally my room! My ideal room in the progress. (Hahahah)

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His interview snaps from Hot FM before he left for Russia months back. Gowd, he is SO fucking hot!

This is Kimora

When E! Channel came into the Astro channel list, it was a long good wait for me. I got the glimpse of knowing what was hot and not on Hollywood now and not have to wait for delayed telecasts anymore. Furthermore, there were a few programs that were sort of to my liking. One of which I am so glued to is Kimora: The Life on the Fab Lane

Kimora Lee Simmons, is a supermodel, a mother, a CEO, an entrepreneur and all other fabulous job that you can mention on. And this show is all about her, how she struggles in between all her “commitment” in the celebrity world. Hence, .......The Life on the Fab Lane.

I like Kimora the first time she spoke. She is so outspoken and I believe if she was put in the WWF ring with another popular TV bitch queen, Janice Dickinson (of Chanel V), Kimora would win hands down. She’s way taller, bigger in built, nicer boobs and most of all vulopcious as to compare to Janice.

Kimora is so queen that she thinks her life is like the fairytale. She wants an absolute top for everything. One specific moment in her show was when this Man dominated Hip Hop magazine wanted to have an interview with her. It was just for a scoop. But Kimora being Kimora, she demanded for a cover story. Never in the history of the magazine, The Source, ever featured a female because the reading audience were entirely the hardcore hip hop. Think of Jay Z, 50 Cent and Ja Rule and suddenly Kimora?

She nailed it though, and got what she wanted: a cover story which incidentally became hot cakes with the readers.

If Paris Hilton was my friend Jamie’s super icon, then Kimora is terrifically mine!

Ps: Don't you think she looks like me, with the long hair and make up on?!

So I'm back being the average boy next door. Forget the moment when I was so eager to pave my way to stardom. Things just really didn't work as it seems. Don't think my talent was crapy enough for Simon Cowell's nactry remarks. I made an assumption that I wasn't 'pretty' enough as the rest.

I wouldn't want to blame on my crave for food, which incidentlly cause me to gain a bit of pounds and lose the midas touch in the eyes of the public.

Anyway, a few good friends I met from the competition made it through to the next round but what I head from them was more terrible feedbacks. I think the organisers weren't responsible enough in keeping thier word. I'll stop here to comment on that.

Thank God classes for the semester has finally came to an end, though I have 2 assignments I have to submit by Monday if I want a good carry mark. And its 2 weeks break for everyone for study break plus the Hari Raya before the final exams. Can't wait for all this to end so I can get a good break for myself.

I was watching E! this afternoon on the story of Goldie Hawn and Kate Hudson. Just how lucky these two bitches, mum and daughter get to explore the dramatic life of a superstar. They're both equally good actresses in their own era. I watched Private Benjamin on HBO long ago, which was Goldie's debut as producer cum actress. And Kate on Almous Famous which earned her a nomination for Oscar.

Oh yeah, TV would be my best friend for this coming study break. Just wanna laze at home and island myself from the city and people.

And sadly, with the very hectic schedule juggling between the reality show, studying for my Finals exam and cheering, I just have NO time for man! Sad. Sad. Sad.

I've noticed from my dashboard, there are some visitors dropping here to read on from this wall of mine. Terribly sorry I had no perculiar time to do so as some has been aware that I have a responsibility to write on another blog.

Life has been ok.

After the long wait, I guess my nerves are getting on me with the reality show has started airing on NTV7. Just for you to put this on your calendar, mark this that the reality show I'm on is on air every Sunday at 6pm.

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Selamat Menjalankan Ibadah Berpuasa to all Muslims. Just at the nick of time for me to fast too, so I can lose some more pounds and look great on TV!

It has been an exhausting but yet three electrifying weekends. You just dont know how incredible the experience was for me. Imagine to have to sleep early on a Friday night, and get up at Subuh on weekends (both days mind you!) just to get ready in time to report back stage at 7. Kalau tak, kenalah maki by our stage manager in front of everyone.

I just can't accept the fact some contestant are so ignorant of this tiny little responsibility. Belum jadi selebriti, taring and semua bulu dah tunjuk.

One thing I learnt from the producer who gave us pep talks every week. She said, "Let people who work with you, love you."

So with the three weeks I've been through, life couldn't have been better. Or was it now? Well, it's good stress release from my breakup. At least something to focus on and not just cry like a baby boy every other night. And my occupation as the teman tapi mesra has seem to be on vacant.

I have not seen him so regular, and he doesn't really bother to text message me too. So it's either he's bored of me or just plain sick that I'm ignoring him (which I'm not!). I kinda miss him a lot but I can't be the one who is terhegeh-hegeh.

Anyway, the Top 30 should be announced soon. And my chances of going far? Definetly.

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The weirdest thing happened last night.

I was doing some strengthening exercise in the room, about half past midnite. Don't ask why at that hour I'm doing work out while most people are already tucked in bed. Anyway, I received an sms from my teman tapi mesra.

Early in the day, I was at Midvalley with my classmates. We were suppose to watch Die Hard 4 which didn't went as planned because the que was berserk. I don't know what the heck was going, or was it that Monday was an off day for 50% of the Klang Valley residence. So I was dejected because Bruce Willis used to be a hunk I really adored and wouldn't think twice to be his bottom! Hahaha

So we romp around the mall to window shop. Guess who I spotted from far. Kayrul. My first automatic respond was to avoid the confrontation. I was so hurt by what he has done to me the last week, so seeing him out of the blue just made things a little bit complicated.

My mind was wondering around until I received the sms from him at midnite.

He said he was terribly sorry for turning his back on me. He listened to some one who apparently was trying to write off my name of his walls. I mean, this guy was actually telling things about me which made him so confused. Secondly, this guy then uses my blog for his propaganda.

One, he has no other things to do but to sit in other people's life and ruin it.

Second, a keh-poh-chee for interffering my life.

And lastly, stupid for using my personal blog to write me off.

This guy is already known to you have read my last few posts. To make it clear, he is the one who took my ex away further from me. Period.

My last words to Kayrul on sms was, "Kalau u jumpe pukimak tu, kirim salam jahanam kat dia from me".

So I am no more the teman tapi mesra, but some sad lonely young man.

I felt so so stupid, because on Thursday and Friday I was so eager to know what had actually happened between us. He kept saying that he wanted to meet and explain on a few things, and that he needed me to tell him something which I don't know what the heck was it all about.

I sms him like a few times, with no replies. Sad. And true.

I only get replied in the evenings, and that too wasn't enough to damper the emotional beared for the day.

My weekend was kind enough to me as I solicit for space to free myself from the entangled. So, it was just lepaking and spending money in Bukit Bintang. I mean shopping is really the best medicine for this and I actually bought a few new tees and one pants. And today, I feel a bit better today.

By the way, just a twist to make my new week more enticing. I met someone yesterday evening. Apparently he saw me before, and took his biggest courage to the test and approached me. Erm, at that point I was totally in a brain dead situtation because he was so cute. I was smoking near a bin at KL Plaza's taxi stand, when he came from far approaching the stand. To que.

I thought he was really waiting for a cab. But that took like 3 or more minutes for him to ask me for a roks. I gave him my Sempoarna pack, and told him sorry I only smoke this for social purpose. He said, cool me too. I'm like, yikes!

We chatted briefly, but I wasn't sure what was going on because:
1. No bloody one ever approached me on the street before, just to smoke and chat.
2. He was kinda straight looking. And my gay radar wasn't beeping at all!

Then he broke the code. Saying, "Actually I pernah nampak u kat Laqueen dulu." My heart beat did not stopped, but popped out from my chest! (imagine like those cartoon characters do lah!) I said, "Oh ye ker" and grin. Blushing at the same time, and maintaining the macho pose. He said he wanted to know me better and asked me out for a drink if I was okay to do so. I didn't mind since I was just chilling around. But I had to break the bubble a bit, as I was actually waiting for another friend with me. So to date me I had to bring a lamp post together. He was ok with it.

The rest, you can just go figure. I just find this man, who is only a year older than me really easy going, simple, smart and at the same time witty. I'm not expecting much out of this as it's just a pure coincidence that I was there, smoking! And he was there too. Or was it because cupid has read my messages I sent to his inbox?

I think I better sent another one, not for another guy but to thank him.

Stupid.

So someone has been using my blog as a personal propaganda to make my life miserable. I don't know what the heck is this little bastard is up to but I'm not going to go eager to find out.

First of all, I know I have not committed any offence to him in the past. I was a sincere friend, eventhough some of my close friend's already reminded me before hand to be on the alert when going out with him. He has so many prawns behind the stone.

Now I know how this life can be cruel, unless we can be certain and make ourselves guarded with our mind and belief that things won't be so much affected by it. You gotta be strong in another word.

Losing a man I love, and now losing a teman tapi mesra is just enough said than done. I better move out from the circle before it's just too late.

A friend said, "It's like you're stepping on the tail end of a snake, and still wondering around it's basket". So deep, expressive but above all a thoughtful one from a caring friend.

Will leave this matter as it is for now. Hanging.

GENTLE REMINDER:

Please leave me alone.

What have I caused you until I have to bear all this unbearable cost?

Jangan jaga tepi kain orang. Please.

Thank you.

This semester, I have to readjust my plans.

It so happen that I failed a subject I really hate the most. Research in Communication. I didn't know until today that I have to repeat this subject, before I take this other part II of the same subject. And to add salt to the pain, the part I is not offered this semester so I have to wait until the next one in November.

To cut all things short, I'm extending a semester! Fork! Bangsat! Amput!

And my industrial training now has been shifted to February next year instead of November.

This semester, I'm taking 6 subjects of which 2 of it requires students to organise a seminar and an event. I like. Just my forte.

Well, I have to live with this new plan now. Sad.

Over the weekend made some little activites hanging out with friends.

First went over to a friend's book reading at Rumah Pena somewhere near Dewan Bahasa. Well at first I was not keen to go but I kinda promised my writer friend that I would come and support him. I cam half past 8, there were a few tudung girls and some old men. Konon, they were the pencinta seni yang very eager to express themselves through the writing.

The first sesssion which was about 30 minutes, featured a few writers. Well I know some of them through the blogs they have online and the one particular writer is Azwan Ismail. The only piece that got stuck into my mind until this very moment is the short poem titled Zakarku. The title itself was enough to raise your eyebrow. I was kinda impressed because in our society, we have people like this one who is able to express with not red tape or whatsoever and those who were listening perceived the writing as just a piece of expression. In plain words, Zakarku was just about the dick after some exhaleration sex. I don't know how to explain.

Nevertheless, I met some other intellectual PLU there too. Said my hello's and so forth. Afterwards went to Laqueen with Abang Shan and his adik angkat. We were just lazying on the bar, wondering and looking upon the Chinese majority. No offense, it was my wrong nite. I don't favour uncut dicks.

Sunday went to church. And the afternoon, went for the 25th anniversary celebration at a 3 star hotel in town. So a boring weekend to end my holidays, before officially entering my final semester.

With ICC Boys, Equinox

With ICC Babes, Equinox

Husband and wife, ICC Committee member

With Indonesian Cheerleading Community (ICC) Allstars Jakarta

Champion, One Cheers from SMA 1 Bandung

The Judges, Jak STUFF Cheerleading 2007, Plaza Atrium

Citoz Plaza, Jakarta South

So I'm back!

I've only one word to recap the 5 days to Jakarta: pleasant.

Nothing much was to be expected since I was driven to the max by the organiser with the event. I didn't get as much privacy which I intended to have thus leaving me out of having some quiet time of mine. All dates was either cancelled or had to be put off because of unforseen circumstance. The Thai guy left to Bali the day I arrived. The guy from G4M was tied with work. Well I was tied with the event too, so there was nothing much I could ask for.

The competition was moderate. But there were teams from 3 different district - Jakarta, Bekasi and Bandung that competed. Well it was truly an eye opener for me as I witnessed three different types of cheerleading style. The Bekasi and Bandung teams were really old school as compared to teams from Jakarta who already has implied the modern day cheerleading. But what made me more keen to the performance from Bandung team, One Cheers and T.N.T. is that despite the old school choreography it was just a breathe of fresh air.

Since I have received a big offer to train an elite school next year, I think I might want to inject the Bandung style in the routine. But of course I might need to add some twist in it to make it more Malaysian, and a captivating one. One goal is to win the honours.

Back to the trip, I only managed to go to 3 malls. Citos which is more like Lot10 and Starhill. Then Atrium, a bit like Sg. Wang and lastly again to the Blok M area which is like Kotaraya and the gangs.

I didn't buy much either as I mentioned earlier everything is on tight budget as I want to go back to Bangkok next month. Oh apparently, there would be some friend friends tagging along in this trip. I don't know if this could break or make the trip. I mean I've never travelled in groups, let alone with other PLU's before. One thing, I will not have the privacy requested but then again it is not well planned yet.

I missed Kayrul so much when I was in Jakarta. I called him on the 2nd night I was there, and the best reply was, "Sorry babe, I'm with my bf now."

Kesian kat I...

I'm leaving to Jakarta tonite for 5 days. This trip is an invitation from the Indonesian Cheerleading Community, who would be jointly organising a cheerleading championship with Plaza Atrium (the new mega shopping mall in Jakarta).

Being there as the invited judge would definetly boost my popularity here and there. Ahaks. Nevertheless, I just love doing my job at the same time I would be able to cuci mata for some Indonesian anak ikans.

I don't think I'll shop as much like before, cause I'm a bit tight on this trip since I'm going to Bangkok next month so saving most of my pennies for that instead.

So wish me the best. In a way, I'm carrying the name of our country. Seating as one of the esteemed judges, it's truly the resemble of my hardwork for cheerleading the past years. Phew!

Best Newcomer 2006 winner, and this years favorite who fell short of the Top5 Award. Nevertheless, it was my best experience and memorable moment as the coach. 12 of the girls are graduating this year making it a fresh new brids of Anchor girls for 2008. To Saf, despite your injury you are still the bomb for being there with the team.

Next year, we're definetly anchor-it!

My best newcomer for 2007. Eventhough they did not win because of the unfair scoring system (girls versus boys - mana aci!?), you lots are still lovely. And your uniform, so professional. Thanks to me again. Heheh.

p.s: Syg, thanks for the inspiration. Vibrant up your life is now our motto!
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So the cheer fever is finally over, and this year my schools come back empty handed. Last years Best Newcomer winner came in a whisker to clinched a Top 5 award but because of the first day mishap, we were only good to be placed at 6th. I don't blame the team for this, but maybe myself. We lost our most calibre flyer (a cheerleader who is tossed up in the air during stunt) 2 days before the finals, when she landed her head on the floor performing a twist dismount from air. If I dind't asked her to do so, she wouldn't had fell and I didn't had to rechoreograph the stunt and routine in whole. And chances are my girls would have easily slipped in the Top 3.

I was confident these team in particular would deliver because I saw the techniques and difficulty level they have performed at the workshop and they were indeed one of the best. But I guess this is just my part of process to learn the drills of life. Not everyday is beautiful, and not everytime what you wish for will come true.

My other two teams were mediocre. The first team from PJ performed so badly on two this despite the confidence they have showed during practices. They too had high difficulty but when it came to the two day competition, they faltered worse from the earlier team. And the third team, which I slotted to win the Best Newcomer Award only managed a dismay 17th position overall out of 41 teams.

I knew they were the best, given the syncronised dance and motions as compared to the 2 all-boys team who beat them to the title. The only advantage these boys had was the stunting skill which I think is an insult to my new girls. And when Jien and co-host Sarah Tan announced who would win the Newcomer Award, the crowd cheered the name VIBRANT out loud! I was too already excited. Then, these two VJs announced something else. I stood there, stunted. I was looking at the bunch of boys bouncing around for they have won, and my girls did not.

I starred back at my girls, and just clapped my hands along with the crowd who too I guess was in shocked. I mean, the boys danced like these abeng on the street. Jumps not syncronised, and don't forget to mention tumbling. Stunt wise I can mute. But overall impression, I knew my girls was the bomb newcomer.

I'm not happy with the new scoring system because it does effect the overall standing. All-boys team stand bigger chance to win, since they're stronger. And then, new teams don't have chance to win because they don't have proper technique to challenge the oldies.

But whatever it is, with my good 6th placing performance it actually earned me an offer to coach another school which was once the force of cheerleading in Malaysia. An all girls school situated in the hill of Kuala Lumpur, I guess the offer came at the perfect timing.

Oh, I'm leaving to Jakarta next week from the 2nd until the 6th to judge a cheerleading competition. I was invited by my friends from the Indonesian Cheerleading Community.

Gowd, I'm skipping a week of class. Ish ish ish....