Tuesday, March 29, 2005

My Parents

I have been staying over at Shaq's place since ever he got back from Paris. And oh my, that was nearly a week.

I wonder what the hell are my parents thinking at this moment?!

Of course they do not know that I am staying with a lover. A guy. It is just a casual staying over at a friend's place. But then, who would go and stay over at his friends place for days? Right? Unless we have something important to work on. Which we are, that is love. The relationship!

But my parents do not know. Not even one single thing. I have been giving many excuses like I have events and performances which really worked at first. But no more. So dad has been a little bit curious. Duh!

I am still bummering around. But that will all stop really soon.

I talked to my mum earlier, regards to her new work and environment and such. Didn't know that she works for a first board listed company. She will be flying back and forth to Perhentian since the resorts management is under her care now. And yes, I can get staff discounts when staying at Perhentian.

Visit: www.perhentian-island-resort.com

Sunday, March 27, 2005

My SIX Months Plan

I am a big time bummer! I miss class since last year. After officially quiting my Law studies, I have had no right direction yet until the day I had a man-to-man talk with my dad.

I was never close to my dad. We never talk, I mean we do, but don't really communicate well. I finally decide to let lose and tell him all my feelings. How I felt when I had to study Law and not to really like it but forced to. How I really love performing arts and how I really hope that he would appreciate it.

It worked out. He said, do whatever you want to do, as long it makes you happy. Do what makes you a better person. I will support you.

That was really really encouraging. I did tell him my plans. I wanted to pursue seriously in the advertising field. And do lots of events. So I decided to study Mass Comm.

But now the problem is, I have not enrolled yet partly because of my fault. So I am making sure that in the next SIX month I have to be going to classes regularly and quickly get a degree. I have applied for scholarships, but that would have to wait until May for the results and interviews. I am looking at the June intake. Perhaps at Taylor's. I have close my option at HELP because they suck.

My dad has a friend at Olympia and is willing to make arrangements. So I will only decide then which college would I enter and pursue my course.

Come July, I will be flying to UK, Nottingham. To carry the Malaysian flag at the International Cheerleading Championships. 20 countries expected to compete. I hope to bring back a trophy because we have so much to prove. To the public. To all cheerleaders. To CHARM. To Beverley.

Then come September, I will organise a grand party at my place in Pantai. For friends. For cheerleaders. For PLUs. To celebrate the victory, the anniversary (Me & Shaq) and the life (me and my future!).

Friday, March 25, 2005

Chombi Menghilang, Tidak Dikesan!

My loving cat, Chombi has not been seen at Pantai Hill Park for a few days. The last I recall I saw her was a night before Shaq left to Paris. That was my last sight of her.

I did visit Pantai on 2 occasions, hoping to see her and perhaps play (bermanja2) with her. But I couldn't see her whereabouts.

Shaq came back 3 days already and she is nowhere to be seen. We are waiting for perhaps until the weekend then to officially report her lost.

I am still tossing and thinking who the hell would want to cat-nap Chombi? Lawa sangat ker dia tu? I kesian Shaq cause Chombi has been her faithful friend for nearly 3 years. Compared to me, Chombi has ate more garam in life with Shaq. Hanjeng!

We were planning to get a younger brother for Chombi of the same breed. Nampak gayanya, Joey has to stay home alone!

Thursday, March 24, 2005

Musictheque Closing

My favorite club is closing down.

Okay I didn't notice this only until last Saturday. And guess where did I found out? From MIRC! Gosh, is this really happening?! If I were to know it from DJ Ivan ke, or Abang Shan, boleh jugak. Ni from MIRC, from a complete stranger! Dame.

I plan to do a great grand finale on my favorite pole podium. Dance whole night, if can. Mesmerise my fans with my new inspired move from Beyonce. Whoo hoo.

I made an open invitation at Friendster. But I doubt anyone from Friendster would go except for Riqi and Kenny.

Wednesday, March 23, 2005

He came back from Paris...

How was paris?
Owh Paris is so beautiful. It's spring now.

That is what I got when I saw him that morning. He was to arrive around 6am at KLIA. I didn't get any reply from sms 2 days before that, so lantak lah. I will wait for his call. So I got up, about 845am. He called me from home. You know how excited I was. Imagine 12 days apart from your love ones. Its our first time to be seperated. And I thought, the days passes so fast.

I arrive Pantai Hill Park approx 11ish. I lambat because I had to do some chores at home. Stayed at home for few days, feels kinda weird. Ye lah, dah duduk dengan bf most of the time. My parents also wondering why am I always at home nowadays.

He got me a t-shirt. Only 2 people got the Paris embroideried t-shirt. Me and his younger brother, Azid. Ok lah. Then he gave me a small box. A gift for our ONE YEAR anniversary! Whoo hoo. He got me a perfume. So sweet kan. What brand? I pun not sure. According to him its the newest collection in Paris. Ok loh...

Thursday, March 17, 2005

Cut or uncut

Hmmmmm...

Confession: In my past, if I were to go out or meet a guy and eventually have sex with him I would want to make sure he was cut.

But today, does it really matter?

Today, I don't mind at all. Was he cut or was he uncut! There is no problem for that extra skin thinggy. I can't recall what had made me change my taste, but what I know is maybe because I have been going out with a few Chinese guys and that I went to bed with some (2-3) of them. I was quite open and well, they were good in bed too! So what the heck kan?!

Now, my dream date is to have a really ncie threesome. Perhaps a cute cut malay guy and a hunky uncut chinese guy. Have sex, and call it EXPLODE BERSATU!

Wednesday, March 16, 2005

Getting hitched!

I had an invitation to watch the screening of Hitch at One Utama. At first I was a bit hesitated to go because I had no company. Friends back out last minute, one had bought tickets for Robots, some have important dinner, and some just dont want to go out.

I finally manage to persuade my girlfriend Carmen at 730pm. She was on the way to Bangsar though so no problem for that. We arrived near 830. Got a quick bite at McDs before kicking start watching Will Smith play his lead role.

Mr. Smith aka Hitch, they call him Dr. Love, the one who is responsible to get man hitch to the lady of their dreams. In between the movie, as expected of course Mr. Smith was also involve in a drama of his own. Very typical story line. Midway through, my girlfriend's boyfriend slept. So what does that mean?

But what made me want to write this was that I was really affected with Mr Smith's role. He was sincere in helping another man thanks to his past experience where his girlfriend ditch him while she was having sex in the car!

I don't want to talk more. I'm not very experience in relationship, since I'm in my first real love relationship. Loving a person whom you can't let go is a very difficult thing to do.

I used to question relationship, for how true it is and how long can it last? But that was last time. Now that I am in one. I feel it. I am one of it. I got hitched! Finally.

Do I like it?

Of course!

Tuesday, March 15, 2005

Crushing a Friend!

I have to make this confession now, before it comes out on Malay Mail!

I am so into this one friend of mine. I memang dah kenal dia pun since I have this pool of gay friends. He lives with another friend, who is also a friend of my friend. Confused?

Well since day 1 sampai today, I memang have feelings for him. But I don't know what kind. I don't think I want to have a relationship with him since I have been able to observe the past 3 boyfriends he has, including the current one. Maybe is a sexual attraction. The other day sempat jugak pinjam baju dia to go clubbing and he said I looked better in the singlet compared to him. Am I suppose to flatter than? Hehehe.

Tapi sometime I memang benci tengok muka dia. Cause he PMS a lot! Like today dia sms I pagi2 lagi dgn word "fucking"....I won't go overboard what has happen. Just to say that setiap orang itu memang ade kelemahan. Same like me lah, tak boleh tahan nafsu! Eh tapi itu bukan kelemahan, kelebihan namanye..!

Monday, March 14, 2005

Perempuan Jalang

Today sempat pegi online chatting. Kalau dah masuk IRC tu maksud nyer, horny lah!

My darling is so so far away, takkan lah kite nak buat c2c kan? So I carik lah yang dekat. Carik punye carik, dapat lah jugak. I had 3 choices. All 3 so eager wanted to meet me, especially the guy whom I finally picked to come over.

He was 1 hour late, thanks to the traffic jam. He said. So he came, he was okay-okay looking. Susah susah mak sikat rambut, pasang perfume. Hanj! Well he insist to watch some porn to get the mood going, but I was not. But I had too since dia pun nak sangat. We watched. I didn't know what to do, but just put my hands on his crotch.

After 10 minutes, I think, he suggested to get a VCD from his car. One of it was a personal collection of his. I pun semangat. So he went lah while I just get ready the lub and condom. Tunggu punye tunggu, dah 15 minit, eh... takkan lah lama gitu. Rupe rupenye he left me for good! Bodoh! Terpaksa lah pompuan jalang ni buat sendirian berhad! Penat2 invest the whole hour, tak dapat2!

Bodoh betul laki bottom tu!

Sunday, March 13, 2005

Cheer @ T-HOP Grand Finals

I'm nervous....

The Grand Finals of the Cheerleading Competition is this Sunday. After 2 heats, my team is lying in 2nd spot! Everyone is surprise! I'm stunt! I can't believe it myself. Blame the inexperience judges. I mean it is a cheerleading competition, but judged by this inexperienced and lame choreographer and dancer!

Final Heats standings before Grand Finals:
1. Dynamitez 80%
2. Team All Stars 75%
3. Xircon 68%
4. Shewanaz 67%
5. Cougars 65%

My team performed twice, both clean routine. We had our difficulty, with extensions, liberties and the popular suicide stunt! YET, WE LOST to bloody Dynamitez with 5 point margin.

I'm so nervous. I'm sorry for the team because I won't be competing, cause the rule says only below 21yo. The organisers saje2 je buat gitu so that I won't join. If I did, sah sah Team All Stars walk with sliding victory!

I'll announce this Sunday the good news! We desperately need this win because this would boost our confidence and our sponsors for our UK trip this July!

Saturday, March 12, 2005

The Heat 1

Today was a nerve racking day for me. After 3 hours of sleep, I had to start my day to the sports complex to check on Team All Stars preparation for the competition. As usual, all the seniors were late. Some even came 2 hours prior to competition!

Anyway, I was late to the venue. Given the fact that I was the MC for the competition, I was nervous all the way. I was nervous because it might not pull in the crowd. I was nervous that some last minute unsuspected thing would occur and destroy the perfection of the event.

2 teams pull out, coincidently both from the same school. So we had 4 teams competing in the preliminaries. Knowing the strength of all teams, I had no worries with All Stars. They came out top today for being perfect in their routine, and for being the overwhelming favorite.

Round Robin Heat 1
1. Team All Stars
2. Xircon
3. Shewanaz
4. Cougars

Friday, March 11, 2005

Paris

My sayang left me to Paris yesterday. I stayed over the day before yesterday. Konon nye... nak berasmaradana before he leaves for his 12 days production trip. Well we didn't do anything because he was busy packing and I was busy getting the documents for MOCHA to be signed by him before he leaves. Cause next Monday I have to go to the ROS to hand in our registration.

I left before lunch because I have my cheerleading class at Sri Garden. My plan was after that memang nak pergi staright to KL Central to wave goodbye. Sekali I terlupe nak call brother in law dia cause I was suppose to meet him at 7pm at Ampang to pass a document. Padahal, earlier that morning I have already emailed him the document but forgotten to inform him! He needed it that night itself. So I rushed with my other friend who kindly drove to Ampang Point at 630 to pass him the docs. My sayang was schedule to leave to KLIA at 730!

Cut story short, I sampai 715 ar Central. But had to wait for the other guys, so manage to spend a few precious minute with him. He gave me a great hug, and bought me this beanies from Teddy Tales. Suppose to be a cheerleader, tapi dia belikan a tennis player! PERLU?

Now he is France, in between Paris and Leon representing the country, or should I say promoting the country with his classical malay dance production. I'm so proud of him!

Now that he is gone, I have 12 exclusive days of my own. First, I'm staying back to Taman Maluri. Spend more time with my family cause all this while asyik kepit dengan abang! And maybe go ronggeng the next weekend! Hoo hoo....

Thursday, March 10, 2005

Sudah Celup! Kamu pulak..?

1. Noah - first guy, 1999.
2. James, PJ - Flex Btm, 1999.
3. Kenny, JB - Top, 2000.
4. Azman, KL - Top, 2000.
5. Man, KL - Flex, 2000.
6. Ray, Australia - Top, 2001.
7. Dennis, PJ - Btm, 2001.
8. Ah Loong - Flex, 2001.
9. Zamir - Top, 2001.
10. Ricky, Subang - Top, 2001.
11. Mike, Klang - Top, 2001.
12. Dennis - Flex, 2001.
13. Awang - Flex, 2001.
14. Ramesh - Top, 2001.
15. Raol, Italian - Top, 2001.
16. Desmond - Flex, 2002.
17. Derrick - Btm, 2002.
18. Ahmad - Btm, 2002.
19. Dinesh - Btm, 2002.
20. Adrian, PJ - Top, 2002.
21. Eddie, Cheras - Top, 2002.
22. Fairuz, Cheras - Btm, 2002.
23. Ismail, Cheras - Flex, 2002.
24. Ismadi, Cheras - Top, 2003.
25. Issac, PJ - Btm, 2004.
26. Ishak, PJ - Flex, 2004.
27. Mike, PJ - Top, 2004.
28. Iskandar, PJ - Top, 2004.
29. Sham, PJ - Top, 2004.
30. Raymond - Btm, 2004.
31. Richie - Btm, 2005.
32. Rizal - Btm, 2005.
33. Syafiq - Btm, 2005.
34. Jay, Cheras - Btm, 2005.
35. Michael, PJ - Flex, 2005.
36. Aizat, KL - Flex, 2005.
37. Muha - Flex, 2005.

Wednesday, March 09, 2005

Sepet

First time I know of Sepet was back in January when I say the banners. I thought it was some regional film, maybe Singapore. Never thought it was local until I tengok name Yasmin Ahmad!
Last Saturday my darling sisters went out to watch it at KLCC before our Musicthec rendezvous. He said it was a nice movie. Day after, my boyfriends went pulak to Midvalley and watch it (with me absent!) and they pretty seem to like it. So why want to wait, of course I wanna rush to TGV and watch Sepet!

I went for a midnight show on Monday, just to check it out. I was curious with everything. I know its Yasmin's directorial debut. We all know her from her Petronas ads. The introduction was really nice, something new. So I decided that this would be a nice watch.

Result: I loved the 110 minutes of the movie. So many things were real. the language, the relationship, the culture, the pasar atmospheare. I would even give credit to the shots. Nicely taken. Even though I was not really happy with some of the scene which was censored by the Board overall this is a nice start for Malaysian movies. Please do not compare this to Sembilu, or a typical Malay commercial movie. Yasmin did her homework. Perhaps in some matters maybe not. But credits should be given to her work. I enjoyed munching my popcorn while going through every scene and every line. Both leads (newcomers, mind u!) did it great. They are so cute together. The ending was a bit confusing, makes you to grudge and think so hard trying to understand what the f**k was Yasmin trying to do!

After today, I will definetly love to see Sepet couples (Chinese guy and Malay girl) going out. I think its sexy. Well if we can have Metrosexual guys, Bohsias, then we should also welcome the Sepets!

Eh......I pun Sepet!

Saturday, March 05, 2005

Musicthec again....

Perlu. For the 3rd consecutive week, I visited the clubbing scene. Again. Yet, the same club! Entah apahal I ni tergilakan Musicthec!

FYI, I will only be on the podium at certain period. Kalau lagu2 Britney, Beyonce or JLo keluar, mula lah Ultimate Cheerleader Malaysia buat dia punye routine! Fuh! Panas.

I was there this weekend to meet up my darling Riqi. He came down from Sabah for a week vacation (I think - and to selam lautan baru). He was there with another cute boy. Then got Abg Shan and his pmr kid to follow me. I invited mr Dr. to join. I didn't expect him to come, tapi datang jugak. Terpaksa I layan dia. He was stunt to see me crazy dancing on the podium. Ye lah, sampai I dapat cramp on my right thighs! Hahaha. I injured my self. But nobody knew about this except for mr Dr. Nak jugak I dia urutkan saya, tapi tak jadi. Aduh!

I promise that I will not go to Musicthec for a while. But well, nafsu clubbing siapa yang boleh tahan kan? Hehehe.

Thursday, March 03, 2005

A Poem for Him

No Regrets....
If I knew it would be the last time that I'd see you fall asleep,
I would tuck you in more tightly and pray the Lord, your soul to keep.
If I knew it would be the last time that I see you walk out the door,
I would give you a hug and kiss and call you back for one more.
If I knew it would be the last time I'd hear your voice lifted up in praise,
I would video tape each action and word, so I could play them back day after day.

If I knew it would be the last time, I could spare an extra minute or two to stop and say "I love you," instead of assuming you would KNOW I do.
If I knew it would be the last time I would be there to share your day, well I'm sure you'll have so many more, so I can let just this one slip away.
For surely there's always tomorrow to make up for an oversight, and we always get a second chance to make everything right.

There will always be another day to say our "I love you's",
And certainly there's another chance to say our "Anything I can do's?"
But just in case I might be wrong, and today is all I get,
I'd like to say how much I love you and I hope we never forget,
Tomorrow is not promised to anyone, young or old alike,
And today may be the last chance you get to hold your loved one tight..

So if you're waiting for tomorrow, why not do it today?
For if tomorrow never comes, you'll surely regret the day,
That you didn't take that extra time for a smile, a hug, or a kiss and you were too busy to grant someone, what turned out to be their one last wish.

So hold your loved ones close today,
whisper in their ear,
Tell them how much you love the and that you'll always hold them dear,
Take time to say
"I'm sorry,"
"please forgive me,"
"thank you" or
"it's okay".
And if tomorrow never comes, you'll have no regrets about today