I have this friend. Well I would consider him as one of my closest friend because my circle of gay friends pun is quite small. Apparently I heard from, and confirmed by one of my close friend that he is actually dating or would I say already hitched with one friend of ours! Well this friend of ours is actually his housemate jugak! So both living under one roof for nearly 5-6 years and only now that the bunga bermekar?!

I'm not doubting, or perhapds jealous although I have confessed here before that I had a little bit of feelings for the housemate of his. But that was years back. I'm happy for the two friends of mine. Though I'm still a little bit sceptical with this whole idea because the reason being this friend of mine always play prank!

Only this weekend's party becomes the ultimate answer to all this frenzy....

Then there this friend of mine, also another close friend who happens sit in the same circle with the couple mentioned above. He currently works with one of the ministry based at Jalan TAR. Anyway, this friend is always outstation or I should put that he is send for working assignment doing talks and all.

Just last weekend he was at Kota Kinabalu, Sabah. He called me a few times, and happen to be I was the only pathetic ear available to hear all his stories. Well I was a bit impressed with the fact that government servant like him can actually have a pleasant and enjoying life. Or was that not suppose to happen?

Hahah. I'm happy that he has a good job now. Since the first day we met, the eve of Miss World 2001, things has changed for the good. It's so funny to think all this now.

One more thing before signing off, another old old friend of mine, whom was in this small unregistered group called the Pink Sisters in Blouse! He will be here on the weekend with his Sabahan boyfriend! I think he is also Kadazan like him. What I heard is that he is the bomb! Will find out once again!

I spend my weekend with my new boyfriend. Well, he is not new. I'm back again with my ex, my then boyfriend who is now the officialy new boyfriend of mine. Hope I'm not confusing anyone yet.

Well I don't want to be a centre of attention here, but the reason I decided or we wanted the relationship to go on was because we could not hide the fact that pretending what is not would not do any better for any of us. We know how much we understand one another now and I guess the relationship will be on a different level then the previous one.

The stupid thing, or I would say the weirdest thing is that we both still have this silly feelings for one another. Remember how going out with a new guy, and all the fuss and excitement. I felt the same way. Couldn't stop thinking of my ex (or let's put it as my new boyfriend)!

I could see the relationship moving to a healthy and more matured direction.

The other day, we played squash. Well it was my very first attempt playing this raquet game as compared to tennir or badminton. I was indeed fascinated by Nical David's power shots and it drove me to have my very own game. My boyfriend was good. Not very good but a good player. Heheh. So there was no complains when I lost my first squash game in history to him. I think the score was 9-6 / 3 -9 / 1-9 / 2 -9

And we played again on Tuesday and I lost again, but this time around 2-3! Close call but never giving up.

Anyway both of us will be busy this weekend entertaining close friends. Apparently those invited for this are all couples. Sounds odd. My darling will be cooking some odd dish too. I pun tak paham but I trust him with food.

Owh, afterwards we will plan to go to Musictheque! Like a celebration too! I can't wait! Serious!

I'm skipping class today because I don't feel like going. Seating in class for 2 hours and listening anf jotting down notes not to my liking today. I can't force myself to be there in the first place because I won't be attentive to my lectures but instead perhaps will be doing some choreography work for my cheer team.

Anyway, the cheerleading nationals will be held this coming 1st and 2nd July at Putra Stadium. This would be the 7th annual competition, and will see an increase of participating teams since there would qualifying round this year in Johor! Cool huh?!

I'm taking charge of D'starz of Sri Aman school this year, and of course Sri Garden's team. So 2 teams in hand, I have enough to sweat myself out this year. My realistic chances for this year is that for the Sri Aman team to squeeze into Top 5 this year and the later to maintain the Top 10 positioning.

Fingers crossed.

Mister cheerleader is back to class again! The two weeks break wasn't what I expected.

This short semester, I'll be taking only 3 subjects which totalls up to 8 credit hours. I think I can cope with Public Speaking class since this subject is one of my favorite. Small Group Communication is another scoring subject (since my sister scored A- for this in the last sem). Maybe my only setback is for Meeting Skills. Again, isn't this so famillar?

I bumped with my roommate on Monday evening, after the nearly 3 weeks of seperation. I missed him. He miss me too, I think. I think I should call him the roommate-I-Will-Not-Get-Laid-With-Ever. This time around his is so much cuter, or was it me being ignorant. I spotted a new Adidas shoes, all-white. And he has this new sets of clothing on. Have I influenced him in dressing? Am I the new glowing inspiration at the hostel?

Owh, talking about new, the new kids (new semester students who just enrolled) are quite a happening bunch. Compared to my batch, they seem to be more dressy and beautiful. The girls are the urban up-to-date types while the boys some of them are like this we call the Metrosexual. Gosh, I feel threathen!

Been doing more work than play this weekend. I took up an offer to DJ/emcee at a shopping mall. The pay for this job wasn't that fascinating, but I took in for the experience.

On Saturday I had to standby at the DJ consule from 11am til 9pm. In between I was given a 2 hours break. It wasn't that difficult but I had a spoilt of choice for songs. Since I had limited source of CDs from home, I only aired whatever I could air then. Wouldn't be surprise if the shopper complain why this DJ so rnb wan?! Or why Spice Girls?? Aiyo.

Well if I have another job like this, I will be better prepared this time around.

As I was strutting my stuff at my consule, I was also doing some cuci mata at the same time. But nothing interest me much lah.

Anyway, I have been thinking alot about me and my ex lately. I guess everyone knows what has been going on lately. Just that I am in my own confusing state. Although this heart seems to love him back very much but at the same time, am I really ready to commit again?

Oh, I think I should get hold of Kelly Clarkson and Madonna's album!

I had one of my laziest Friday today. After training session with DHL staff last night, I had dinner with my ex at one of the warong in Kerinchi. Actually I planned to watch movie at Midvalley afterwards, but I was already worned out! My body was aching.

Went home. We had a chat. Well a little bit of quarrel. I didn't take shower before heading to bed. I was really really not in a mood. So he was in the living room watching TV, while I tucked myself in bed. It was a breezy night. Then my ex came in. Gave me a nice hug.

And I had to spoil it saying, "Tak yah hug I! I kan tak mandi!"

So this mister ex pun tunjuk belang. He turned to the other side of the bed to show off his anger. I pun bengang! I kicked my leg. I showed my anger. I said, "nak peluk jugak!".

Had my best sex for a long time then!

Got up quite late today. We both had a heavy brunch at the mamak. Went back home. He was suppose to get ready to go for Friday prayers while I was ready to go for training with the Sri Garden team. Then it all started. Raining came pouring down. That was slightly at 1pm.

At 3pm it was still raining. Well by then both of us had skipped our respective chores and decided to be together in bed!

At 5pm it was still raining. Then, my ex was already and took his shower and performed some prayers. I went back for another short nap.

At 6pm it was still raining. I decided to get up. My ex was there by my side. He was so sweet. But I was hungry. So I cleaned my face. Went to the living room. My cats were on the couch. He prepared some tea and kueh. Again so sweet.

It was raining then. Astro was no help. So I put on the DVD and we watched Vera Drake - movie about this lady who helped young girls out (abortion) in the late 50's. A British story which aimed to portray a lady's nice heart but doing a wrongful act against the law. She was sentenced for 2 years and 6 months.

By 8pm before I left my ex, it was still raining!

Who died today???

Announcement!

My ex and I will be throwing a house party end of this month!
This is to celebrate Labour’s Day! Yikes.

Take this as an official invitation! And you know who you are lah!

Date: 29 April 2006 (Saturday)
Time: after Maghrib (for those who don’t pray) and after Isyak for those who do!
Venue: Phase II, Pantai Hill Park

Please let me know if you are inviting a partner along because this invitation is per individual only. Need to know the number or else, someone has to eat at the mamak later on!

Muah...

Remember my Genting trip with my ex, and when I had to go through the rollercoaster ride?

Well I could relate that to my past few days of living as a person. It was one such ride.

I was professing on my ex’s boyfriend for being a true annoyance. Just yesterday, thing’s went off. My ex dumped his boyfriend for good!

Am I the real mean bitch? Or am I just too powerful influencing people’s life? I think I should tell my dad that I should sign up with the Youth BN Party!

My ex called me to come over his place and said that he had some good news for me. He said maybe good news to me. I decided to go because no harm done. In my mind, I thought that if the good news was not about any sponsorship deals for my team then it had got to do with him and his boyfriend.

This was true indeed when he told me that his boyfriend was already emotionally blackmailing him! And it was enough to blow the lid off. Venito!

So he was smiling, or maybe smirking when he said he was single now. Am I supposed to jump the wagon and take his hand for a ride. The ride of our lives!

I’ll think about it. Anyways, I pity my ex’s boyfriend who is now officially the ex of my ex. Complicated? Then again, I’m the best ever ex produced since Adam and Eve what! So why pity? Just celebrate!

Why do we hurt the most the person we love the most?

I watched Gubra yesterday with my sister and cousin at Midvalley after obtaining my semester result. Well Mr. Cheerleader kick-all-out didn't do pretty well. Scored 3.100 for CPGA, a bit shy away from the 3.5 I craved for.

I was not dismayed by the result, but took it as a new opening for me. Now that books are my good old buddies, I wouldn't be worrying too much on my education.

Elsewhere, I have been a little bit upset and perhaps you can troubled by what is going on with me, my ex and his boyfriend. Sounds complicated? It is.

I don't really know at first what do I really want out of this. This ridiculous relationship. I was punked by my ex and his good boyfriend about the little secret Genting trip we had. I thought to snatch my ex away from his double life and have a meaningful outing up at the Highlands. To find out the next day, on my face that this two a**hole has already talked about it, and the konon-nye good boyfriend allows my ex to go with me to Genting.

It sounds good. I mean the boyfriend accepting it well. But I don't think so. I think it is not right.
Knowing the fact that I am not very much ready to get back with my ex, until he is ready to leave that boyfirend of his. And until everything is cleared.

I was really annoyed again yesterday when this boyfriend of his text message me when the sms I sent earlier was meant for my ex. True annoyance and RUDE! Like I have posted before here, he is controlling my ex's phone until I have no privillege to sent him messages I want to send. So it's better not to send. Because if I do, all I get is unpleasant replies. Again, WTF!

All I wish was that my ex to not call me on my birthday. Because this would not have been so complicated. Or maybe my ex should have been a little bit patience playing with his tool. Capricorn always is one.

What am I to do when I am hurt? Or is this just the kick back from what I have done to my ex in the past?

A little update.

I just got back from Genting with my ex, for some short break after the hectic weekend we had. The cheerleading competition went well despite my junior team came in second to CHARM All Stars. Nevertheless, I look forward for next year.

The Genting trip was my idea. You might be thinking I'm insane, or practically confused, which I am. Going out with my ex to Genting?! I kinda enjoyed the trip because first, it's my first trip up to the highlands for a proper relaxed holidays then my usual showcases. We had some pretty good deals, and thank God for my WorldCard membership, we got to watch the Mysteria showcase going on now in Genting.

We took the bus ride from KL Central on Tuesday, after having lunch at Puteri's. The ride stopped at Awana where we took the skyvan to the top. I was excited. The room was cosy. Dinner was fine. But the outdoor ride I took the next morning was insane! It was my first visit to the outdoor park! At first I thought the rollercoster ride would be a simple task for me. But it proove me wrong. I was nervous, and my heart was pumping twice then usual. The ride was horrible! To make my mind completely worse, I just watched Final Destionation 3 weeks back. That was enough to kill my self esteem! My ex was not helping, instead he was excited to see me horrified. Gowd! I will remember that ride. I bought a picture of me taken on that ride! Will post them soon! It cost me 10 bucks!

The cheerleading competition coorganised by my team with our sponsor, South City Plaza (SCP) will be held this weekend. You can't imagine how busy am I today and the next 2 days. Been running up and down the town like a mad dog.

The judges from 3 countries has arrived, and I am so proud with what I have done so far. I really this competition will get a good feedback despite the very low participant entry. Only 5 teams entering from the 12 targeted. Shame.

SCP has been a great lot, although they could be a little stingy with $$$. Otherwise, I'm just happy. Happy that my team is able to contrinute to the cheerleading community here.

Cause if I don't cheer all out, might as well don't cheer at all!

GOOD LUCK to me!