And sadly, with the very hectic schedule juggling between the reality show, studying for my Finals exam and cheering, I just have NO time for man! Sad. Sad. Sad.

I've noticed from my dashboard, there are some visitors dropping here to read on from this wall of mine. Terribly sorry I had no perculiar time to do so as some has been aware that I have a responsibility to write on another blog.

Life has been ok.

After the long wait, I guess my nerves are getting on me with the reality show has started airing on NTV7. Just for you to put this on your calendar, mark this that the reality show I'm on is on air every Sunday at 6pm.

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Selamat Menjalankan Ibadah Berpuasa to all Muslims. Just at the nick of time for me to fast too, so I can lose some more pounds and look great on TV!

It has been an exhausting but yet three electrifying weekends. You just dont know how incredible the experience was for me. Imagine to have to sleep early on a Friday night, and get up at Subuh on weekends (both days mind you!) just to get ready in time to report back stage at 7. Kalau tak, kenalah maki by our stage manager in front of everyone.

I just can't accept the fact some contestant are so ignorant of this tiny little responsibility. Belum jadi selebriti, taring and semua bulu dah tunjuk.

One thing I learnt from the producer who gave us pep talks every week. She said, "Let people who work with you, love you."

So with the three weeks I've been through, life couldn't have been better. Or was it now? Well, it's good stress release from my breakup. At least something to focus on and not just cry like a baby boy every other night. And my occupation as the teman tapi mesra has seem to be on vacant.

I have not seen him so regular, and he doesn't really bother to text message me too. So it's either he's bored of me or just plain sick that I'm ignoring him (which I'm not!). I kinda miss him a lot but I can't be the one who is terhegeh-hegeh.

Anyway, the Top 30 should be announced soon. And my chances of going far? Definetly.

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Sorry for the long overdued because I'm actually committed writing to another blog. You can visit it at: www.jude.starceleb.tv

Actually it's a blog where all finalists for Star Celeb has to write in about thier daily journey. So you can just read it from there.

Star Celeb is NTV7's latets reality show in the search for the next TV host, brand ambassador and model. I made it to the Top 60 and moving forward. Everyweekend there would be an elimination round and I've survive so far. You can check out the official website at: www.starceleb.tv

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The weirdest thing happened last night.

I was doing some strengthening exercise in the room, about half past midnite. Don't ask why at that hour I'm doing work out while most people are already tucked in bed. Anyway, I received an sms from my teman tapi mesra.

Early in the day, I was at Midvalley with my classmates. We were suppose to watch Die Hard 4 which didn't went as planned because the que was berserk. I don't know what the heck was going, or was it that Monday was an off day for 50% of the Klang Valley residence. So I was dejected because Bruce Willis used to be a hunk I really adored and wouldn't think twice to be his bottom! Hahaha

So we romp around the mall to window shop. Guess who I spotted from far. Kayrul. My first automatic respond was to avoid the confrontation. I was so hurt by what he has done to me the last week, so seeing him out of the blue just made things a little bit complicated.

My mind was wondering around until I received the sms from him at midnite.

He said he was terribly sorry for turning his back on me. He listened to some one who apparently was trying to write off my name of his walls. I mean, this guy was actually telling things about me which made him so confused. Secondly, this guy then uses my blog for his propaganda.

One, he has no other things to do but to sit in other people's life and ruin it.

Second, a keh-poh-chee for interffering my life.

And lastly, stupid for using my personal blog to write me off.

This guy is already known to you have read my last few posts. To make it clear, he is the one who took my ex away further from me. Period.

My last words to Kayrul on sms was, "Kalau u jumpe pukimak tu, kirim salam jahanam kat dia from me".