I have one major confession to make, but sadly I can't make it here! Sob.

So I'm a cheerleader, and I'm now a dancer. But I'm overweight?!

It has been one of my personal issues of having an ideal weight for myself. Although I have receive some nice comment that I do look nice with my weight now, but I still have this little insecurities of myself. A guy whom I don't know well came to me once and said that if I really take care of myself like cutting out the excess fats and going to gym, I would be a goddess. How intrigue?

Cinderella story is nice to hear. But to me, my overweight issue is not a Cinderella story. I would blame this on my active lifestyle. More of my hormones actually. I have this one major problem, which I think almost

everyone who is close to me knows what is it. When it comes to food, I can be an animal freak. I eat as though food has not been served for 1000 years. I eat as though there is no tomorrow.

Once, I was at the cafeteria at college. I ordered a nasi ayam (nasi tambah), and then had wantan soup as a side order. Then I again I ordered another light meal, eggs with hotdogs. Plus a dessert, waffle with ice cream! In between, I had 2 carrot juice. My classmates were horrified. I was too. Now my nickname in class is Tum-Tum. It hurts inside.

So today I have made a big decision. A personal decision. My boyfriend might be laughing his heart out when he reads this, but I guess it takes one to start. I will be cutting a lot of food from now onwards. No more eating late at night. No more eating two meals at once. Junk food is okay but not too excessive! Focus more on getting rid of the excess fats first. Swim and jog, if not then just do some cardio dance. Just remembered, my Fitness First membership is still hanging loose. I should go tomorrow!

I want to be a goddess. I want to be a beautiful swan. Not an ugly duckling! Not a guy to be rejected because of his overweights.

People say beauty comes from within. But as I already know the asam garam of this cruel world, beauty is from outside first. It is so true.

My crush! This boy is my junior at college. Well he is a Diploma student, but doing the same course Corporate Communication. Born in Johor Bharu. I read his profile on Friendster, and found out that one of his hobby is actually reading the Quran. Gowd, it really ticked me off!

He lives in the same hostel block as me. Him on the 7th while me on the 1st floor. Went to his room only once, with another course mate who borrowed his laptop. I caught him, I mean we caught him half naked with his boxers short only. Rasa nak makan je!

Anyway, I heard he is confused. I hope he is. Because he was born to be people like us!
p/s: Sayang jangan marah sangat ye. It's just a crush. At least I'm honest!

I knew I would be having a really really busy week ahead of me but did not think that things would really go this extreme.

Every evening, I will be very tired. My eyes sore and body aching. Imagine since Monday I had to get up early for a morning cheerleading session. Then moving on with another school in the afternoon, and then to All Stars practise in the evening. Had the same one again for Tuesday and Wednesday.

Gowd. Although this helps me lose some weight, and have a nice figure back but the setbacks I'm getting is just untolerable. And those around me is not helping either. So I had to sneak and take a nap whenever I can. Which I did in between recess, or while I'm in the taxi or even at home when TV is on but watching me sleeping.

I hope all this will bring the betterment, especially with the Nationals. I know this year I have the brightest chances to win some trophies with the teams I am coaching. I just hope the cards will be played right this time around.

DSTARZ, SMK (P) SRI AMAN

I’m on my short term break, and will be resuming back for the new long semester this coming 23rd. So what’s keeping me tight up on schedule? To you, it might be boring but to me it matters most as what I do is what I really care and love doing. What else? Cheerleading!

The 7th national high school championship is scheduled on July 1 & 2 at the national indoor stadium in Bukit Jalil. Prelude to that, the regional qualifiers will be held at Penang and Johor respectively on the 24th and 25th this month. I might be going to Penang to watch.

This year alone, I’m coaching 3 schools.
SMK (P) Sri Aman, Petaling Jaya (senior team), SMK Seri Bintang Selatan, Cheras (junior team) and Sekolah Sri Garden, Cheras (senior team)

This would be my fifth year, coaching cheerleading seriously. And being one of the pioneer cheerleader with the so-called national cheerleading team, Extreme Malaysia All Stars (formerly known as Team All Stars of Malaysia), it is so interesting that I have not won the national title yet! So this time around, I might sound a little bit desperate as I am betting my cards on the Sri Aman senior team whom I see has the brightest prospect to shine at the nationals. Meanwhile, the junior team from Seri Bintang Selatan is slotted to win the Best Newcommer title. If all goes well, I would be the celebrated coach of the year! Fingers crossed.

ANCHORZ, SMK SERI BINTANG SELATAN