I had trouble sleeping last night.

My room mate wasn't around til 2am. So I pretend to sleep, while he was getting ready to bed.

Our beds are oppossing one another, which means if he sleeps and faces his left (and me facing my right) we would be watching each other sleeping. It's so weird because I have never had a stranger company in a room. At home, I have the room on my own except for my little brother who has revently taken over some space. And while I was with my bf, we were in bed together. Not seperated like in this case.

The ceiling fan was beating fast. I knew he had trouble sleeping too. So I peeped.

I lookover across his bed. He was facing me too. But I didn't know was he awake, or eyes closed because my glasses weren't on! Whatever it is, I was really getting it on last night. I couldn't resist, and had a hard on. Some part of me wanted to cross over and slowly caress him. Some part of me "slaps my face and forget about it"!

I tired down at nearly 3am.

Dejected. But I will have a few more tries soon.

I hate my Wednesday timetable. Although I only have two classes (1 hour each) on this particular day, the irritating problem is that one class is in the morning session and the other later evening. WTF!

Today, after report writing class I went to the cafeteria for lunch with sister and cousin. FYI, both of them are studying at this University College. As I noticed, there are actually a number of worthy good looking guys around campus. I have my favorite lists. There’s this one particular Malay chap whom I tag as the Hero Remaja! The reason being he reminds me of the many male models wannabe in one of the local Malay teen magazine.

He’s tall, fair and nice built guy. His girlfriend is so ugly, that I wouldn’t mind to replace her. But I don’t like this guy because he is my competition at campus! The competition for the most beautiful man on campus!

I think he’s bisexual….

I was at the Thank You party for all volunteers of the Red Carnival last Saturday evening. The committee graciously invited all the performers, but sadly only I came representating the whole gang.

I brought along mum's carrot cake for the Chairman and his partner. But shared them with everyone. It took 5 minutes to dispose. Cool huh.

Anyway, it was a great evening for me to get to know the PT people. Since I will be doing more of this volunteer work with PT, I should get acquinted to the personels too. I got to know this one guy who studied the same course I am doing now. I think he is in his late 20's. From his accent, I knew he was an overseas graduate. Well some overseas graduate don't have accent, but some do. Whatever it is, this Chinese guy had an interesting story to share. He graduated from the US of A, and worked as an assistant video editor then. But when the economic crisis hit, it was a turning point for him as that job did not provide him the necessary satisfaction. Hence, he quit and moved to Ukraine! (of all places)

In between muching the rendang and listening to him, I reminded myself that this could be one a hell of a long long narrated story....and me being the nicest lot around, stood and carried on listening.

In Ukraine he met this Italian guy who happen to be the ambassador too. Cool. I was excited then! After a year a so, this political guy had to move back to Italy (Rome) and asked him to accompany. But the catch was he cannot stay with him as the ambassador does not allow boyfriends to stayover. Whatever excuses. And at that moment too, he was persuaded by his mother to get back.

So here he is today, living helplessly in KL teaching English in a private university. I forgot to mention that he is so charming! I thought of having sex with him that night. But on second thought, nah...let's keep it that way. He confessed that he was an attention seeker! HELLO! How can two attention seeker sleep together? It's so againt legally bottom!

There's nothing much of agenda this week at campus. Instead the projects, and assignments are pilling up. Dame.

There's this one research report where I have to cover on HIV/AIDS. Well actually it was up to the students to decide on the area of research, but I thought since I have the know-know in this area should take the great opportunity to learn and in the same time score! Duh.

I dyed my hair red on Sunday. It was just for the fun. I wanted to do something odd since dad is not around until January. It is not the red-red, chillie red colour, but it is obvious from a close range. I'm happy with this for mean time. At least these attention seeker get what he wants for now! Hoho

I'm getting a little bit confused with my dating status at the moment. I am so in love with this guy whom I broke up recently, and patch things back again. But then my mind is distracting me with many other choices available outside.

I'm just split with everything.

He called me two nights ago, and we spoke for nearly 2 hours. I missed him so much, the things we do together and such but I just can't let it out. My heart can't leave him, but my mind is just being a real bitch.