Chombi leaving for Jakarta tomorrow morning. It is more of a work trip than pleasure but although I would be able to slip in some.

I'm flying over there by the invitation from the Indonesian Cheerleading Community, where I would be one of the main speaker at the First Cheerleading Clinic Conference. It is more of helping to develop the sport there in Indonesia.

It is a history making trip for myself, and also for both country. I just hope that from this trip will turnout some promising plannings.

I have checked also my Utopia site, places that I should be visiting during my off period. I plan to club alone at this place called Heaven. My friend Scott said it's the only most happening gay club there. I also checked the sauna listing, sadly not that promising compared to here in KL. Damn.

Will see how. Can't wait...

What has Chombi been doing the past week that kept him occupied from the thought of being dumped by his boyfriend.

Chombi head to Wisma SPK’s Fitness First to receive his membership card which was suppose to be due 2 months back. But due to the hectic schedule of classes and cheering, gym was the least in mind.

I had my first appointment with my Personal Trainer, and had a lengthy discussion from the program I should be doing and also nutritions. Yikes! When it came to the subject of food, I couldn’t hide and self confessed that I was a big eater. The PT a.k.a. Nicholas is also a Sarawakian himself, quite cute but short. My type for ONS. But no that’s not what I wanted in the first place. I wouldn’t deny that the opportunity to catch fish at the gym is always available, but I had one focus in mind. To make it an icing on my cake, my first trip to SPK already attracted a fan base of my own. Pretty cool. I think I have been going to SPK like 3 times a week. Mostly doing running on the mills, and also working on my abs. Only last Friday I only started to do some weights. I intend to lose some pounds first before building some muscles. Not really necessary now because what matters is that I need to look great in my jeans! That’s it.

When I met Harry, I found out that he was also a beauty freak like me. I mean being physically beautiful in they eyes of the others matters. Harry used to be a Fitness First member until he had to stopped because of his idiotic boyfriend plus working commitment. His work forces him to travel, hence the termination of membership.

That was about a year ago. I think he still has a nice body, though u might spot the little baby fats. Not excessive, but still sexy. When we were at Orange, he had a few potential who made eye contact to him. Well he told me that, and I kinda believe what he said because he was incredibly hot that night. I so wanted to have sex but we didn’t.

I would really prefer to pronounce this relationship as a Teman Tapi Mesra.

I met this guy from the mIRC. Let's call him Harry.

Harry lives in Ampang. A 29yo Sarawakian, who works in Bangsar. Also recently left from a 7yo relationship with this one idiot he always said. I don't actually understand how could u love someone for so long, and when things are over everything beautifuls turns to everything ugly.

Harry sometimes talks about his ex. Not sometimes, perhaps almost a lot. So I told him, if you were trying to forget him one major step is to not to talk about him. From my conclusion, Harry had to leave the relationship because he caught his lover having sex with someone at his place.

Gosh this was already dejavu for me!

So turns out to be, Harry is a simple, straight acting and friendly guy. Chombi is not expecting much of this because all I need now is just no-strings-attached kind of relationship. But I cannot consider our relationship to be that yet, because after staying over at his place three nights we have not had any sexual contact as yet. The most was cuddling in bed when sleeping.

I was shy, and he confessed he was. So I will just leave this to Allah.

Last night, I brought him to Orange. According to him, he never clubs to PLU hangouts accept for the straight ones. Believe it or not? I didn't careless but just as excited as him to go to Orange. Last night was the Grand Final of the Voice of Stars competition. The only straight and real girl beat 9 gay hopefulls to the coveted crown. Funny but exhilarating!

So my friends were there at past midnite. They saw me with Harry, and he was the hottie they all wanted to go ga-ga for. But sorry boys, he's mine!

Harry can't dance as well as my ex. But that is not nice to compare.

What's up next? We're leaving for PC Fair at KLCC then head to Low Yatt. He wants to sneak on the prices of the projector. OMG, to project our first sex scene on the wall kot.

With the recent talked about of Jennifer's life from the downfold to the uptown girl, I thought of making myself the simillar transparent. Just to make myself happy. Just to redeem my ego from the breakup.

So what's was Jenny's solution?

She went out with many man. When I refer this, it was not your typical going for dinner and later on bring him back for the night and have a ons. I have not thought of it either. Jennifer and I share the same star. We're both Aquarius. PLUs - People Like Us would consider what we're doing as a nobelty towards our health. I mean is that after going through the pain, and suffocation of breathe to stand from the turmoil all we need was something back. Just a sign to relief.

Note: According to my ex, this going out with other guys just to chill with was already considered dating. OMG.

With our very different opinion, I had to live with mine and to fight for it. What I have learn during this current period is that I made myself a complete idiot but comparing them with my ex. Although I have no pure intention to date someone seriously at this moment, (as my heart is crying out loud....."jiwang!!!")....all I want to do is to appreciate my time and do more exploration. Just like what TV3 is doing now with Explorace, going beyond expectations with Malaysia Airlines.

So who is Chombi hanging out with now?

A movie featuring Jennifer Aniston was out just recently, and what made it so interesting was the movie was too much of looking glass mirror effect towards me.

I was given a break up message from my then boyfriend at 3am, where I read it only the following morning. I was rushing for class at 8am, and my alarm wasn't working at all. When I saw his message, I was a little excited. But not. The content was just too harsh to read. Even the opening says, "Sayang, I have been thinking a lot........"

That was enought to predict the message contain. To be frank, we weren't in our best relationship the month. I think it was me. Or not me. Wouldn't want to pint it out here.

So there you go. He finally gave me a freedom, but a freedom that I wouldn't want to accept. Not for now. If I was to review the relationship I had with my then boyfriend, (which I will officially refer him as my ex), I think I had learnT many things. Especially when it comes to understanding a person, and having the opportunity to spend your precious minutes with your love ones.

I only had him to rely on when I needed someone to talk to. You know, when you're just pondering on something and would like to send an sms to someone. The instant recall is him. But now I can't do that.

Although I would like to confess that I do still love him, it would be meaningless. He has made up his mind. And I have to accept it.

Maybe I will follow suit what Jennifer has done. She's my role model now.