Been doing more work than play this weekend. I took up an offer to DJ/emcee at a shopping mall. The pay for this job wasn't that fascinating, but I took in for the experience.

On Saturday I had to standby at the DJ consule from 11am til 9pm. In between I was given a 2 hours break. It wasn't that difficult but I had a spoilt of choice for songs. Since I had limited source of CDs from home, I only aired whatever I could air then. Wouldn't be surprise if the shopper complain why this DJ so rnb wan?! Or why Spice Girls?? Aiyo.

Well if I have another job like this, I will be better prepared this time around.

As I was strutting my stuff at my consule, I was also doing some cuci mata at the same time. But nothing interest me much lah.

Anyway, I have been thinking alot about me and my ex lately. I guess everyone knows what has been going on lately. Just that I am in my own confusing state. Although this heart seems to love him back very much but at the same time, am I really ready to commit again?

Oh, I think I should get hold of Kelly Clarkson and Madonna's album!

I had one of my laziest Friday today. After training session with DHL staff last night, I had dinner with my ex at one of the warong in Kerinchi. Actually I planned to watch movie at Midvalley afterwards, but I was already worned out! My body was aching.

Went home. We had a chat. Well a little bit of quarrel. I didn't take shower before heading to bed. I was really really not in a mood. So he was in the living room watching TV, while I tucked myself in bed. It was a breezy night. Then my ex came in. Gave me a nice hug.

And I had to spoil it saying, "Tak yah hug I! I kan tak mandi!"

So this mister ex pun tunjuk belang. He turned to the other side of the bed to show off his anger. I pun bengang! I kicked my leg. I showed my anger. I said, "nak peluk jugak!".

Had my best sex for a long time then!

Got up quite late today. We both had a heavy brunch at the mamak. Went back home. He was suppose to get ready to go for Friday prayers while I was ready to go for training with the Sri Garden team. Then it all started. Raining came pouring down. That was slightly at 1pm.

At 3pm it was still raining. Well by then both of us had skipped our respective chores and decided to be together in bed!

At 5pm it was still raining. Then, my ex was already and took his shower and performed some prayers. I went back for another short nap.

At 6pm it was still raining. I decided to get up. My ex was there by my side. He was so sweet. But I was hungry. So I cleaned my face. Went to the living room. My cats were on the couch. He prepared some tea and kueh. Again so sweet.

It was raining then. Astro was no help. So I put on the DVD and we watched Vera Drake - movie about this lady who helped young girls out (abortion) in the late 50's. A British story which aimed to portray a lady's nice heart but doing a wrongful act against the law. She was sentenced for 2 years and 6 months.

By 8pm before I left my ex, it was still raining!

Who died today???

Announcement!

My ex and I will be throwing a house party end of this month!
This is to celebrate Labour’s Day! Yikes.

Take this as an official invitation! And you know who you are lah!

Date: 29 April 2006 (Saturday)
Time: after Maghrib (for those who don’t pray) and after Isyak for those who do!
Venue: Phase II, Pantai Hill Park

Please let me know if you are inviting a partner along because this invitation is per individual only. Need to know the number or else, someone has to eat at the mamak later on!

Muah...

Remember my Genting trip with my ex, and when I had to go through the rollercoaster ride?

Well I could relate that to my past few days of living as a person. It was one such ride.

I was professing on my ex’s boyfriend for being a true annoyance. Just yesterday, thing’s went off. My ex dumped his boyfriend for good!

Am I the real mean bitch? Or am I just too powerful influencing people’s life? I think I should tell my dad that I should sign up with the Youth BN Party!

My ex called me to come over his place and said that he had some good news for me. He said maybe good news to me. I decided to go because no harm done. In my mind, I thought that if the good news was not about any sponsorship deals for my team then it had got to do with him and his boyfriend.

This was true indeed when he told me that his boyfriend was already emotionally blackmailing him! And it was enough to blow the lid off. Venito!

So he was smiling, or maybe smirking when he said he was single now. Am I supposed to jump the wagon and take his hand for a ride. The ride of our lives!

I’ll think about it. Anyways, I pity my ex’s boyfriend who is now officially the ex of my ex. Complicated? Then again, I’m the best ever ex produced since Adam and Eve what! So why pity? Just celebrate!

Why do we hurt the most the person we love the most?

I watched Gubra yesterday with my sister and cousin at Midvalley after obtaining my semester result. Well Mr. Cheerleader kick-all-out didn't do pretty well. Scored 3.100 for CPGA, a bit shy away from the 3.5 I craved for.

I was not dismayed by the result, but took it as a new opening for me. Now that books are my good old buddies, I wouldn't be worrying too much on my education.

Elsewhere, I have been a little bit upset and perhaps you can troubled by what is going on with me, my ex and his boyfriend. Sounds complicated? It is.

I don't really know at first what do I really want out of this. This ridiculous relationship. I was punked by my ex and his good boyfriend about the little secret Genting trip we had. I thought to snatch my ex away from his double life and have a meaningful outing up at the Highlands. To find out the next day, on my face that this two a**hole has already talked about it, and the konon-nye good boyfriend allows my ex to go with me to Genting.

It sounds good. I mean the boyfriend accepting it well. But I don't think so. I think it is not right.
Knowing the fact that I am not very much ready to get back with my ex, until he is ready to leave that boyfirend of his. And until everything is cleared.

I was really annoyed again yesterday when this boyfriend of his text message me when the sms I sent earlier was meant for my ex. True annoyance and RUDE! Like I have posted before here, he is controlling my ex's phone until I have no privillege to sent him messages I want to send. So it's better not to send. Because if I do, all I get is unpleasant replies. Again, WTF!

All I wish was that my ex to not call me on my birthday. Because this would not have been so complicated. Or maybe my ex should have been a little bit patience playing with his tool. Capricorn always is one.

What am I to do when I am hurt? Or is this just the kick back from what I have done to my ex in the past?