Just out from a meaningful relationship, makes me feel so lonely most of these days.

My usual routine I enjoyed the last time is now no more a reality. No more calls in the evening from him. Or no more sms-es from him. Yes still thinking of him but then it is so confusing to think of the relationship again and again. I should move on.

Stevie is nice. Young like me, not very outgoing, but quite experienced in the field. Cute, tall and lean. Mix Indian and studies the same course as I am! He happens to know my use-to-be-best-gay-friend-but-now-selling-drugs, which was interesting. I mean how he knew him that is. He used to work part time at this one plu bistro somewhere near Puduraya, but now defunct because who goes there to dine at God-I-Don't-Know-Where-Am-I?! And this use-to-be-best-gay-friend-but-now-selling-drugs happens to hangout there most of the time!

I met him at a hangout joint, who happen to be a friend of a friend of mine whom I was to meet. I was having my Twister! Then we shared another. Chatted and we exchanged numbers. We went out again after that. And again. Just met him earlier today for dinner. Stevie is nice. But I might just give it a pass because of my past. I hope Stevie doesn't read this. He doesn't know I write one. Unless he again happens to be a friend to a friend of mine who does blogging! That's insane then.

Sorry I have been quite busy the past week as I am working on my report writing subject. We were given a week to hand out questionaires of our selected subjects. It was fun to hand it out, though it took me big guts to send it to some of the Malay kampung guys. Heheh.

Anyways, my research is on University Students Opinion on Prevention of HIV/AIDS. Since I will be committing myself with Pink Triangle's workload this year, I thought of starting by learning of the issue itself. On the undergrads point of view lah.

I did my interviews too.

This weekend, I will be busying tallying up the results. Imagine 500 questionaires!

Crazy bulls**t!

Elsewhere, things are getting paced up. School has started which means cheerleading program shapes up. I am coaching two schools this year. The latest being an offer from a school in PJ. I was esclated when the teacher advisor called and offered the coaching job!

I'm also coaching or say training the staff of DHL Malaysia and AmBank Region 3 staff for their respective sports event. Quite hectic. Aiyo.

Sex: Boring.

Love: Boring.

Porn: My best friend!

My sister received presents, and packages from her Nepalese based boyfriend. Coincidently, one of her classmates was going to Kathmandu for a holiday trip. So my clever sister, who has not met this guy (accept online), arranged for this two to meet.

He was to pass my sister's friend the gift packs. So this friend came back two days ago with a big plastic beg. In it, contained Nepalese junk food and other stuff. I liked the dried nuts with raisins. I finished a packet.

I just couldn't believe how deeply in love is my sister with this cyber boyfriend of hers. Although I could be envying her for having such a gorgeous lover, but the fact is that the relationship is so.... omong omong kosong!

I'm single, but I would not want to desperately invest in this "techno" relationshiop. I think its stupid. Well some human can get trapped in this, like my sister, maybe it is fated. Maybe not.

She was stressing the words Valentine's Day today. Thanks to Hitz.fm! I told her its just a waste of money! Everything on that particular day is purposedly to make men broke! I don't have plans to celebrate mine. Never did. I'm still grieving with the past. It sucks. Though I keep on thinking about the new man I meet everyday, the past keeps on haunting...and hits me back.

I went to the MAS Academy this morning with mum. She works there. I was there to busybody. Got too excited when I heard she said many stewards. I went for breakfast. And so help me God, I met a few guys who were really really really my type! I was week. But attention was on me because of my stupid red mowhawk hair. Anyways, I set at one corner. With mum. While carefully sipping my teh tarik, this one guy approached our table. Shit!

"Hey, you from Sri Garden right?"

I looked at him, he was so famillar.

"Yes", I replied.

"Jude kan?" He was excited now. He smiled.

"Yes", I replied.

"It's Erwan, your junior lah".

"Ya, ya, my junior. No wonder you looked famillar", I replied......

Mum was there. I felt akward at first.

He left us. He said goodbye.

And I got his number!

Yes!

To continue from when I bought a doughnut for my roommate. Yesterday, I came back a little late from training in Seremban. Mum was already waiting nearly 15mins for me. So I rushed to my room to get my things.

He wasn't around. It took me a minute to get htings packed into the suitcase. Ala-ala steward Air Asia! Cause I was wearing an-all-black attire. Cool glasses. My suitcase was red. Trolly beg konon.

As I was closing the door, there he was from the end of the corridor reaching towards me. I was nervous. I said, "Hey Lim, I'm going back to KL." He said, "Oh okay. See you next week. Take care." "Thanks", me said.

My heart said, "F**K!".

I left him as my mobile was ringing non-stop. Mum was impatient. Me too. And gowd! I forgot the doughnut! Again my heart speaks, "F**K!"

Had an early day today to complete my report writing assignments. For the next week, I will be conducting interviews and surveys on campus and two other campuses on University Students Opinion on Prevention of HIV/AIDS. This survey, and a follow up of a report presentation at the end of the semester contributes to 20% of my final mark. I have to score A for this in order to achieve my 3.5 point.

Elsewhere, I saw the Hero Remaja guy again today. I think it is fated that we will only meet on Wednesdays for the Report Writing class. I got to know that he is studying Business Admin. At least we nod, and smiled today.

My roommate is a blonde boy. I asked if the lab was opened at night. He said no. Only the library is. I was just double checking with him, as my Pakistani friend, Ali, was enquiring. I'm now at the lab. Chatting on Mirc at the same time. Only a few PC has the chatting privillege and I am one of the rightful owner. I am still finding difficulties to break the ice with him. My sister finally met my roommate today at the cafeteria. She was so so excited because my roommate was obviously cute. Fair chinese boyish look. I so want to hug him right now. Anyway I bought him a chocolate doughnut from Dunkin's. I will give him later. Will see how it goes.